sucked out.

I think the only time I come around to posting is when I feel like whining. I suppose not whining is a good thing, because it means I don't have anything or much to complain about other than the damn heat we're having in Brunei thanks to the people who are burning forests in Miri and those stupid people who don't understand that the new Government rules have bloody banned open burning in Brunei. Dumb dumb dumb!!!!

I just drank like 3 cups of green tea. I'm going for my fourth and fifth one very soon. Y'know, the only time I drink excessive amounts of tea (may it be green tea, english breakfast tea or just plain ceylon tea) is when I'm upset. I'm damn well upset. I just ate half a packet of malteasers, which taste too sweet to me =( and it's suppose to be my favourite junk food. I've run out of ALL my nachos (probably because my sister has eaten them up), and I'm not in the mood for Jacob's crackers. *sigh*

In short, today practically sucked. Other than getting up only to find out that there is no frigging water in my room, and to find out that the water down stairs is freezing cold and they're only dripplets, I managed school fine. I had an accounting paper 4 mock exam which was bullocks because oh I don't know. The funny thing is that everything that came out was stuff I was good at, so why the hell did my mind go blank? Don't you just hate it when that happens? I guess I did manage to scrape up whatever thoughts or ideas I had in my head and just answered the questions.

I want to get school done and over with. I'm driving myself nuts because I can't make myself happy any more because of exam pressure and the expectancy for me to do well. I am not well. Everyone is making me SICK. STOP it. Leave me alone. PLEASE? I don't need any more remindings. I don't need you to push me. I know where the hell I'm leading, but right now I'm being pushed into hell.

xx,
yasmin.