There's so many things I'd like to say - so many I wish I could say. I don't like feeling the way I do now - not because I've started the motion of feeling sad - it's the idea that I feel pathetic. I always believed that people shouldn't show that they are weak - hence the reason why I don't blog when I'm feeling down.

Today, I feel like I have no one to talk to, no one to turn to. I feel alone. I don't like being back in Brunei, but at least I'm back and I'm with my parents. I'm barely talking to my bestfriends, I don't hang out at cafes. I just don't know what to do anymore, so I'm blogging.

I give up. I accept life as it is and I hope no one bothers me and my thoughts anymore.

aku terima.

now can you take this fucking pain away?