International Day

I bought a new Sony P150 7.2mpx digicam on Chinese new year as a gift from my mum. I've been going picture crazy (as I once did when I had a canon digicam), I've got tons of photos in my pc at the moment.. I've been working on (or trying to anyway) a new image gallery for uA.org, that should be the next project as soon as I can find time to actually sit down and work without worrying about my other projects.

Happy 18th birthday to Nabilah XP or Beelz.. or biLah.. or uhm.. hehehe mwah :D yarz loves beelz. hehe I hope you have a great one babe! =) I hope you got my sms, but I'm not sure if it's still your number. hahaha mwaaahhh

It's 11am in the morning, I just woke up. I had my hair done yesterday, and the past two days have been sort of hell for me. Friday was international day in school, where we got to dress up in national costumes. There were all sorts of people there and I took lots of photos (of me..haha). I dressed up in a black chongsam top with black pants (yes, I'm bad luck. haha) whereas Rach and Ade both dressed up in pink chongsams. Hrr.. I met up with Aimi by the locker Bays. Bong wore a Harry Potter costume by putting on this huge bath robe and stapling a 'Hogwarts' logo on it. Haha There were pirates, ninjas, musketeers, crocodiles..

Ninja girl; Sarah, Musketeer; Keren and the Pirate; Charlotte

It was a great day for everyone though we were made to stand under the hot sun at the junior games court on the other side of the school. The parade of nations was great because we got to learn where everyone was from.. I walked with the Brunei group.. and somehow managed to blend myself in the Malaysian parade. That was hilarious =P No, I'm not Malaysian.

from stupidlogic. =D mwaaaah


This is a wallpaper from fluky, the monkey is digits :) Click on the image to view it fully.

There's a showcase in school on Monday, I'm going with my sister and our friends to watch it. I hope it'll be good.

I was really annoyed with myself and everyone on Friday afternoon. I was suppose to have lunch with my friends.. but I did go play basketball at Sg. Akar which was fun though the usual guys weren't there.. I made two new friends though and they play funny. I don't know why, but I laughed so much because of the silly plays and things every one did :) I guess I was just trying to cheer myself up, and I did.. or thought I did anyway. It didn't really work but heck. I tried.

There was a football match in Jerudong, Aimi was playing so I came by to watch. Hafiz came and joined me, I learnt something new about him. Though I was on the verge of crying due to my annoyance towards life and other possibilities that can annoy me, I didn't. I took a nice long walk and talked to Fiz about how I was feeling. I'm hoping that I'm just going through a phase because another breakdown isn't something that would be healthy for me mentally.

I haven't been out with Adeline in ages. Busy? :\

Social pressure doesn't really do much for me, although I know I'm suppose to be careful with what I do and the things I say. I am, but heck.. why does everyone have to know what is or who it is I am. It's not anyone's business, is it really?

Okay, I'm not really done. But I have to go.

love,
yasmin.

Valentine's day photo/card.

I'll be back soon. Coursework is making me go crazy.

Believing in words..

In the middle of the word believe, there's 'lie'. If you're suppose to believe in something, could some part of what of your beliefs be lies? I'm a person who questions what I see, and who I believe in. Maybe it's being overly analytical, but the point is, I think and see. I hate knowing that there are people who talk about me behind my back, with lies coming out of their mouths. How can a person who I don't even know, let alone talk to, speak of such lies about me to their/my friends? Is it that the more the untruth is spoken of, the more believable it is?

Reflection is something I look forward in doing every weekend of a fortnight, where I just think back and reflect upon my life. I don't really need anyone to understand me or even know me 'that' well that they can predict my every move. I know I have moved away from that aspect in life, and have become some what 'different' from who I was back in 2001.

I'd like to think that I am, perhaps, stronger than what people think. I'll give myself credit for being able to withstand all the sharp pain being thrown at me. I still get jabs in my heart, do you know that painful feeling you receive, literately, in your heart when something feels so wrong that it hurts? I get that kind of pain in my chest, and it feels like it's located in my heart.

Is it normal to get migranes or torture-like headaches every day? I don't think so, and yet.. I'm experiencing it. I feel like falling down to the floor, or like the room is spinning. Sometimes it gets so bad like I'm the one who's spinning, just waiting to fall.

Valentine's day is coming up. I wonder how I'm going to experience it this year. I remember last year was terrible for me. I received a valentine's day card from Randy though, it was really sweet because he wrote me a long letter. I miss him. I wrote all my best friends a card that year, I wonder what's going to happen this year.. I just hope I won't end up coming home, and crying again. It hurts too much to think about the past, but who can help it?

Memories last forever and I'm not someone who can just forget.

Sigh :) Happy 16th birthday Alisa. I love you darling. xx