What's really weird about being here is that I'm not in my security circle. I wish I could be with at home right now, just sitting down and listening to my music on angel13. I miss home, tough. No one really cares right? Sigh. It's cold and miserable here. I've been depressed for a few days now.. and I can't go back home because it'll be a waste of money, bla bla bla and whatever else reasons.
I don't really hate being here, but knowing that I'm going to be here until June 2006 sucks. I want to go back home and bring my comfy pillows here and shove my huge teddy into my bag, then maybe I can pack the rest of my t-shirts because the clothes they sell here are so not worth the cash they ask for. £5 to me is still a hecklot I can do with back home, but actually, that's not even enough to buy a top. I'm cold here, and I don't have enough clothes. lol. I have no money. I'm just saving up to buy food, god knows how well I budget. I'm starrving because it's fasting month.. well, only a few days to go for that part.
Oh, in case I forgot to mention; I am at Loughborough University, UK. I made the 2nd basketball team, but didn't join because I don't like walking home at night, and because it was going to cost me £72 to join in for the year.. annd.. I thought it over and decided that I should just join in next year instead because I'd probably be used to the university by then.
My first three friends here were all guys from Hong Kong. They thought I was chinese and I had to politely explain that I wasn't, and I didn't know any cantonese and the only words I know in chinese are in mandarin anyway. Adeline would get a nice laugh out of this, along with Rachael if they heard the words that have been said to me in whatever dialic it is they use here. lol.
For my part, there aren't as many Bruneians here as you'd find in Notthingham, which is like 15minutes away by car. But there are enough to keep me company over weekends, which is what I've been doing: sleepovers and late night movie sessions with everyone else :happy: day-light savings started yesterday, and by 5pm it looked like it was already 9pm. Scary I know.. I was a bit freaked myself because I was at my friends' house that evening. We broke our fasts around 4:40pm, along with some pizza that the seniors brought the house :tounge: I walked home, it took about 15minutes.. which isn't that far by my standards, because if I were walking alone (which I won't ever ever be doing if it's at night), it would take me 10minutes flat to walk from my hall of resisdence to the weekend house. HAHA. I'm caling it the weekend house because I'm probably going to spend my weekends with them anyway >.<
I know I haven't blogged lately, I am sorry.. but I do have photos, but I don't know if I'm going to end up posting them up here or not. I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life here, and back home. It's no different from the one I used to live in except minus a few perks i.e. having a boyfriend who's in the same country, cheaper mobile rates, more time to play basketball and the sun doesn't go down at 4pm!! Wthhhhhhhh..
I went to Leicester about two weeks ago. That was a lot of fun but I didn't do much shopping, probably spent £20max on books at WH Smith, which is what I've been doing regularly. Most of the stuff I spend my money on is on books and food. I'm tempted to buy clothes soo many times, but that would just blow my budget and I don't think I'm getting any money any time soon until the whole bank account deal is done and over with. :angry: SLOW SLOW SLOWW..
Oh, I'm here on Government scholarship. I didn't post about it back in August because I didn't want to jinx it and I wasn't even sure if I was going to go to university or not. To those of you who didn't know I left, I'm sorry because I only confirmed that I was flying off on Monday, and I left the following day. Yes, it was that last minute. :sad: I only packed a couple of shirts. I've got a few right now in a nice Iceland plastic bag, waiting to be washed. lol.
I bought a printer and a hand vaccuum here though because I cannot stand the idea of waiting for someone to vaccuum my room :sad: It tends to turn into one helluva mess. But I make sure that most of the time the stuff in my room is organised. I've got a rice cooker and kettle in here too. I kind of regret telling my mum not to get me a toaster because sometimes I hate going to the kitchen where it's just freezing from the wind outside.. and I have to get up in the middle of the night to burn some toast for my sahur.
The textbooks I had to buy here cost me like £200, and I think I'm suppose to get about two more next semester. It's week 5 here already, nothing too special except the fact that my first coursework is due in in three days :confused: Sigh, did a math test online. I didn't do well on that one because I accidently clicked the submit button, and you can only do the damn thing once. that's like 3% of my grade down the drain.. well, maybe slightly less. Blah.
On a weekly basis, I think I'm spending about £20 on food per week, and this would vary if I eat out with my friends.. but most of the time it's us eating at someone's place and we bring food to eat there..I try to restrain myself from spending more than £5 per day because I can't afford more than that for now.
At the moment, I'm still waiting for my debit/credit cards, cheque book, balance book, etc from HSBC. I've 'opened' an account, but without those little things, I can't pay my accomodation. :angry: It sucks baaddlyy..
I get headaches here regularly, and I find it hard to fall asleep. I guess I'm either thinking too much or the weather here is just too bad. Blah. My nose gets blocked easily in the morning, and god, that's a hell lot of tissues. :grin: I've used up 3 boxes in 5 weeks. Yup, it's that bad here.
I might be going down to London this weekend, depending on where I can stay. Its going to be packed with other Bruneians is my guess. I know. I know. I have a lot of things on my mind. :sad: Oh well.
That's one long post. I will post again another time.
love,
yasmin.
xx
