Sometimes she would just lie down and listen to heartbeats and the footsteps in the foyer. She didn't think her life would end up this way, let alone that she'd feel so burdened with her heavy thoughts. She's glad though, because at least now she has one person she can talk to. Break ups aren't suppose to be easy, eventhough she let go of the rope she was holding on to along time ago. It still managed to drag itself along, becoming a ragged piece. She can't explain how she's feeling today, or why her tears seem to easily fall across her cheek.
Four years is a long time. I don't regret days I've spent.. nor the days I've had missing out on things that could have been or should have been. It's life, and we move on. We'll make mistakes and we learn from it. But what I've seen so far.. is that people will always judge another from their cover, or what they've heard. It's always assumptions that seem to taint a person's picture. A dye that can't be fixed or erased. All in all, who gets to be the one who carries the pain? My shoulders feel heavy. So heavy from the lies and talk of me. I hear things, I always will. There's really no point in hiding it. I've lost so many friends and those potential friends.. hah, they've slipped through like sand through my fingers. It's okay, but we all know its because of all the poison you've all fed into their ears, their thoughts.
Who am I to stop you? I suppose we'll never learn.
We'll always judge.
Now it's just up to us to decide. I won't refer to God but we all know where this is going to lead. How do you know a person's heart is full of sin, or simply misjudged affection?
Its hard to figure out who your friends are. Sure, you've got hundreds of friends on facebook. It's probably that half are curious of you, and the other half are those you are curious of. You're not friends, and yet you'd like to see how miserable or comment to yourself what a pretentious life that person is leading. Am I wrong? Sure, there will be that odd friend or so, that you really would like to keep in touch with. But hey, it's okay. That's just how people work.
We're all two-faced backstabing assholes at some point.
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Four years is a long time. I don't regret days I've spent.. nor the days I've had missing out on things that could have been or should have been. It's life, and we move on. We'll make mistakes and we learn from it. But what I've seen so far.. is that people will always judge another from their cover, or what they've heard. It's always assumptions that seem to taint a person's picture. A dye that can't be fixed or erased. All in all, who gets to be the one who carries the pain? My shoulders feel heavy. So heavy from the lies and talk of me. I hear things, I always will. There's really no point in hiding it. I've lost so many friends and those potential friends.. hah, they've slipped through like sand through my fingers. It's okay, but we all know its because of all the poison you've all fed into their ears, their thoughts.
Who am I to stop you? I suppose we'll never learn.
We'll always judge.
Now it's just up to us to decide. I won't refer to God but we all know where this is going to lead. How do you know a person's heart is full of sin, or simply misjudged affection?
Its hard to figure out who your friends are. Sure, you've got hundreds of friends on facebook. It's probably that half are curious of you, and the other half are those you are curious of. You're not friends, and yet you'd like to see how miserable or comment to yourself what a pretentious life that person is leading. Am I wrong? Sure, there will be that odd friend or so, that you really would like to keep in touch with. But hey, it's okay. That's just how people work.
We're all two-faced backstabing assholes at some point.
