Walking in and out.

It really sucks when you're just sitting there, watching as things happen and moments that just pass you by. It's amazing how you can just hold on to something and not let go for such a long time that you begin to feel sore just holding on it.. how you're able to struggle to hold on to something your not even sure that you still believe in anymore.

Why is it that a person is able to just hold everything in and not allow their feelings to let loose for all to know? How can a person survive just watching the person they love destroy themselves because they asked them to? How is it that you can love someone and never let them know? How is it that a person can just hide behind the truth and allow for mistakes to happen and not retrack them? Wouldn't that just lead to a bigger mess? Man, I've screwed up so badly that I don't know what to make of it anymore.

I've watch so many things happen for the past month. I have allowed so many things to happen. I haven't done anything about how I've been feeling. It stupid really, I feel so stupid.