Being cold.

It's so cold here that my hands dry up and the parts where the skin mostly folds up are so red that they look like they're about to bleed. And dear god, they look ugly. I rub aloe vera on them and they just look worse.. and the lotion smells nice that it actually calms me down. The laundry was so warm in my hands, I need warmer gloves.. and something to protect my ears when I walk outside. They say it's suppose to get colder here, but they don't really know when. A friend mentioned that this winter will be the coldest one yet. Awesome, I might as well have been sent to Alaska or something. It's freaking cold. The upper part of my lips feel stiff, they don't look dry.. just very red. I can't even open it properly because it stings. I drink water, lots of it.. but it doesn't help. Cold weather soaks up all the moisture in the air, guess who has to suffer? Let's be selfish with the answer here, yeah, ME. I have to endure the cold and live with it.

I've read through 3 of Jodi Picoult's books throughout my 7weeks here. Each and every one of them have made me cry one way or another through grief, shock and whatnots. I am hating the idea of losing my ability to write and express myself cleary through my own website. I cannot believe that I've lost that connection I once had to manually update whenever the day goes through.

Coursework seems to be a delightful issue here. I, for one, am particularly happy with the computerized based tests (that's our "coursework"), but I will whine and wince at the thoughts of written ones. Blegh. We get at least one coursework per week, all of which have to be done within that week and submitted either to the computer checker (i.e. the submit button :tongue: ) or to the math or business department. So far, the math department is winning with a total of 6 courseworks and as for the business department, they are dragging behind with only one. Me, I'm fine with things either way, but I seem to be enjoying calculus more than I ever think I would..and linear algebra is not struggling to join its place with calculus, but has somehow fallen.. and won't get up.

I still need a bedside table or maybe a cupboard so I can easily put my things away in proper order. My desk looks like a tornado passed through it, and everytime I clean it up.. it'll only get messed up again about 20minutes later. I've been tempted to buy an iPod nano/shuffle but that's probably because every person I walk pass here is wearing ear phones and is probably listening to some punk band I'd probably enjoy. Yes, peer pressure and the bloody urge to fit in. oh how utterly pathetic.

I think my health is deteriating, I'm never sure what to eat, or what to eat. I'm eating more vegetables though, but they're from IceLand, nice and frozen. All I gotta do is fry the cornbeef or tuna, and just dump some green in.. and there we go, all colours. I'm gonna buy a bike one day, it's purple and belongs to one of my seniors. Might as well, it would save the wear and tear of my only pair of shoes. I feel like a moron. I've got plenty of shoes back home, and how many did I bring? One pair for sports (which I refuse to wear for anything else because I'm worried I might ruin them) and just another pair for everyday use. Yes, I need boots because my poor toes freeze up in class..and stomping them just looks weird.

I bought a new scarf the other day, it's purple and it came with a pair of woolen gloves. Now that's awesome. I still need a jumper or something to keep myself warm.. wearing 4 layers of clothes here still isn't enough, and it doesn't help when your ears freeze up and turn red.. that just gets so freaking painful. What's worse? The weather dries up my hair and skin, and.. I look ugly. My face has blotches every where, and it's just horrible. So that's a stiff upper lip, red blotchy skin and hair that looks like it's been fried. Oh luxuries of being in a better country. pft. Maybe it's allergies. I managed to prevent myself from getting sick though I knew it should have happened anyway. Cold weather always gives me the sniffles, and headaches that just won't go away. Can you imagine having a headache throughout a whole weekend up to now? That's 6 days of non-stop head-to-wall banging. It is so not dandy. paning ku eh.

So what do I have here for breakfast might you ask? Well, depending on what I have left over from dinner (if I do have dinner), if I still have a lot of rice, I'd eat rice. If not, I'd probably have toast with jam and butter or with nutella. Then, if I'm lucky, I'd have Quacker Oats or Coco Pops since they don't have Koko Krunch here, I wonder if I can import some in. If those choices aren't available, what do I do? I don't know. I scrape up whatever I can find in the kitchen I guess. I had potato waffles the other day with eggs for breakfast. God, I'm going to be so fat when I get back. whatdahellman. Did I mention I weigh 59.7kg? Yeah, I'm HUGE. *cough*

Anyway, it's late. I'm going to bed.

gnight.

I'm missing home. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my mum. I miss my dad. I misssss my sisterrr.. and I miss my best friends.

love,

yasmin.

xx