Downward slopes.

I'm feeling kinda slumpy, like in a bad mood.. a little but then again maybe it's just the harmone's talking. On top of that, I'm starving o_o but I just ate about 3 hours ago. I've been in my room for 2 days to count, and I don't know if I should thank god for my exam tomorrow because it'll mean I have to get out of my room. It gets kind of boring in here after awhile and I had to fight the urge to go to the Union shop to buy some Frosties and salted butter for my toast. :-S Weird I know.

I don't know why but I think I miss Moanna. Weird. I barely see her unless we actually plan it out and that's the only time I think I make sure none of my plans over lap. :-) Yeah, I think I love her that much. Other than that, Paintball practice got cancelled, I'm still going to London though because I bought my ticket.. I just haven't decided where I'm going to stay yet. Besides, I'll probably get lost in London, which is probably the reason I avoid it most of the time.. even when people ask me to come down.. because I know very well that I'll get lost from St. Pancreas to Paddington. It's not a walking distance, I don't think. I've only been down to London twice (once when I was leaving back to Brunei and once when I came back). Atu pun, I didn't do much except wander around Bayswater and to Hyde park with M-Feared. That. was. fun. Coffee runs & Hot Chocolate Cravings. I especially love the part where I got to see a 6" something guy (a.k.a feared) chase a pigeon in the park. lol.

Over the week, I've been to Leicester once and Nottingham twice. That was a lot of fun. I'm still yet to find some halal restaurants.. but we'll get there eventually. If anyone knows of places and directions.. please comment because I'd love to know :-)

I've got my economic's exam tomorrow. Not that confident with it, I'll probably mess up or something and get slaughtered by the parentals with their samurais. If not them, maybe by my boyfriend. I've spent the past 2 days studying.. and I want to recover the topics I'm going to do during the exams.. :-( but I still think that isn't good enough. Blah. The multiple choice is 50% of the marks, so pray I do well on that one so I can at least pass the damn thing.

The layout is not permanent.. uh, the top bit anyway. Please don't scream and say it's too blinding. XD I'm still going to add more colours to that because it's too pink for my taste. I made it about 2 weeks ago.. foxy think's it's too pink. :-) What foxy says, yas yas follows ;-) Oh and I forgot to add the links to my hostees. I'll put that on my to do list soon.

I wrote a long email to my hostees last night regarding the status of ua.org. I need replies to that as soon as possible please. I'm adding a new hostee at the end of next week, as soon as I finish tweaking her requirements and teaching her how to use the whole blogger jargon.

I miss abang justin :(

love,
yasmin.
xx

I got tagged XD

1. Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.

2. At the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!

um. okie.

5 Random/Weird things about ME XD

- I prefer wearing shorts instead of long pants to bed because they tend to ride up when I'm sleeping anyway so they kinda look like shorts in the end.. so I save myself the hassle and uncomfy feeling by just wearing shorts.

- Most of the music I listen on my Media Player is from my sister. She has more influence over my taste of music because I can't be shit bothered to download what I "like".

- I am an honest-to-goodness klutz and I have walked into doors, walls..and bumped into my cupboard XD

- I am easily amused/entertained. Sometimes my brain works like those keychain thingies that say "turn over" on each side..haha and I can do that..for like.. 2 minuts. XD or just give me a nice cube puzzle to keep me busy. hehe

- I always feel like there's a pair of eyes watching my every move. Sometimes it scares me, but sometimes I forget about it.. but hell, it's there.

now I tag FOXXEH, J., una, abang oren jus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! andd um... *thinks* I pick M- Feared XD

yeah, I LOVE YOU TOO. lmao.

love,
yasmin.
xxxxxxxxxx

killings.

I really REALLY wish I could go home right now. I don't really know what I'm going to do there, but anythings better than here. It's so.. Blah. The weather's alright, kind of feels like Brunei.. always raining, except when the wind blows, you're chilled to the bone.

I haven't really been doing much with my studies. I'm not that motivated in making myself happy. Maybe its because of this never ending headache I have and it's annoying the hell out of me. I'm drowsy by the time the clock hits 8pm.. and I can seriously taste my eye drops at the back of my mouth. It's disgusting :-
I got a call from Souri yesterday, and she told me that our Computer Application marks were out..along with our coursework marks. Since it was group coursework, that wasn't published online..so I had to dwaddle a 30minute walk to the Math department. It was closing in about half an hour so I managed to shorten by powerwalking that 30minute walk to a nice 10minute walk. Yeah, talk about woman power. X-D anyway, j. thinks I brag about my marks too much. But yeah, I'm going to brag this one out anyway.. hehe because it was a 100% for me baby! lol Umm..i.e. I got a hundred percent for the coursework and an eighty percent for the written test. So yeah, I passed that module. um. Yeah.

My first exam's on Monday. I've been playing with some balance sheets, god I hope I do alright. :-S I know I'm going to get murdered if I don't do well. Blah. I hate expectations. It makes me not want to do well. But yeah, not doing well would only pull me into depression and then I'll be thinking about suicide to make life for the people who want to kill me easier :-D lol.

The conjuntivitis eye problem I had is getting better.. the white parts of my eyes look a bit pink now.. but then again, that might be because the lighting in my room sucks. It's so not bright and my eyes hurt in this damn room. There's light, but there's not ENOUGH.. don't they know stuff like this can damage a person's eyes. geez. Other than that, I'm refusing to see a doctor.. I'm fine. I just get tired easily nowadays.. and I don't have any iron tablets.

Hari Raya Aidil Adha was the other day.. I went to the British Islamic store the other day and the guy asked me if I was muslim.. and I got free meat from the korban. w00t. so awesome because I've been craving meat..but it's so expensive here :-S I'm yet to complain about the prawn. Then again, that's what you get for living smack in the middle of UK, away from the sea and rivers.. SEAFOOD IS EXPENSIVE. Less than 200g of prawn can cost you £5. Nice yeah? NO. I'd be broke. Thank god for Iceland. :-)

I'll be going down to London on the 3rd.. I was suppose to have netball practice, but paintball practice came as an offer first.. so its like first come first served. X-D So yeah, I'm going to London. Hrr..

Out of randomness, can I mention I miss my boyfriend? I MISS MY BOYFRIEND. *!&(!&!!!!! I want to get exams done and over with. I wanna go home as soon as possible.

21 weeks? Let's count.

xx

I HAVE AN EYE INFECTION!

well not AN eye, but eye infectionS. :-( I must have caught it when I was still in Brunei and it only appeared a few days ago *cough* either that, or it was the contact lenses. :-( I've been sleeping for 12 hours straight two days in a row now, I sleep whenever I can and wherever. Thank god for my seniors who help nurse me back to health. I'm not exactly healthy right now, but time with them always makes feel better :-)

Most of the white parts of my eye balls are red o.o" and around it, my eyes are puffy and swollen.. and it's a bit hard to keep them open and stare into bright light (like the lappy). I'm drowsy from Lemsip, it actually made me fall asleep around 3 this afternoon ;-\ and I only woke up at around 7ish. I slept on Mas's bed :-) She's so nice. I slept on her floor the other day as well. I was suppose to go home on Saturday morning because I went out to the union with her on Friday evening for her friend's birthday. Other than that I cooked lunch and dinner on Friday, and dinner on Saturday. I let Iz cook today's lunch because I'm too dead tired and it's hard to keep my eyes open.

Anyway, I'm off to bed. I don't have any classes this week. And a week from Monday will be my first exam. Financial Accounting Fundementals which is like 10 of the module marks. Whoopdeedo. :-) Wish me luck in my studying.

love,
yasmin.
xx

We live on too many memories in mind.

I wonder if anyone actually notices what a ditz I can be. Today, right after filing my newly printed Accounting exam samples.. I was about to throw (in my mind) was a tissue paper, guess what almost went in the bin? My Finance & Accounting folder. Yup. Yasmin = ditz + absentminded.

So what's new? Last night I cried my eyes out while reading my boyfriend's old emails. :-( Call me sappy but it made me sad and miss home. God, I've only been here for a week and I already want to go home. My eyes are still bloodshot tonight, mind you, I might look like a fright. I feel really messed up right now, but I'm trying hard not to let it get to me. I am missing home and the feeling overwhelms me. I guess I could say that the crying did me good but then again, what do I know? What I know is that I have class the next day and there's no way I'm turning up with swollen eyes. Thankfully my face remained normal (guess the chemicals in my tears weren't sad enough) and I did go to my 11am math revision lecture.

To my disappointment, I won't be having my usual Friday Accounting lecture at 9am tomorrow :-( how sad. Oh Qi & Jit, I finally understand the damn demand and supply curves. I guess I should have read the text books earlier huh? :-) It's all clear to me now. I feel very much enlightened after reading only 1 chapter of 30pages and now I understand most of the things I've learnt in Microeconomics For Financial Studies, in fact, I expect to do alright when the exam comes along :-)

What did I do today? I cooked Salmon with Soy and Oyster sauce :-D It was delicious. The weird thing though, when I think about it, how come we never cooked salmon back home? :-O That's something I ought to try when I get back home, which is in about oh, 5 months. How. utterly. long.

Sometimes you always manage in one way or another remininsce about the past in to a conversation just like the long talk I had with Iz today. Life takes you up and down, but why do the downs want to occur every single time? Newton's third law: For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. You seriously cannot argue with that because that is what we understand of the world today. So every cloud has a silver lining (I'm not sure if that's suppose to be an optimistic view or not, someone elaborate on that please), and every dog has it's day.

The PEBL phone I've got rocks, but I'm not used to having a motorola. I switched the O2 simcard to my nokia phone and put my dstline in it instead ;-) my babe usually texts me at that number anyway, and I'm not using it much for outgoing calls.. just reading messages so it's alright. I'm finally learning what the hype is about bluetooth, yes I am about 2 years too late. How degrading of a gadget lover :-D Oops.

I got bored the other day and even after an announcement on deviantART that I'd be going missing for 4 weeks.. I lie :-) I've been on it everyday. How come when I think I don't have time to do my dA-ing, I have a heck load of time in my hands and when I decide to make time for it, I totally space out and forget all about its relevance in my life? TSK. Bad organisation. B-A-D. :-P I left my camera's battery charger at home :-( I don't really know how in the world I'm going to get it back. I have an uncle coming to UK in February. MMMM.. Nah. I can't do any photography until I get my camera back. So I guess my work will have to wait. Until I pass out.

Tomorrow's FRIDAY! I doubt I'll be going to my algebra revision lecture because I don't really know what to ask. From what I've learnt (or heard, from a Mr. Horne), the only thing you can do about maths is practice practice practice, because experience matters and will help you get through that puddle of numbers. >.<

My back's beginning to be a pain :-\ I don't really know why since I've never had any back problems before, but it's beginning to feel a bit painful at the spine, three quarters down. Maybe it's the way I sit or maybe I need to buy a cushion to support my back because this hard chair certainly isn't helping. I should get a computer chair or something, WITH WHEELS! o.o; weirdo.

Oh well. I'm done for now. I want to write some notes up.

love,
yasmin.

Errors of today.

So a guy walks up to me with his hand in the air as a gesture of a hello. I stare at him with disbelief (well, I didn't think anyone would say hi to me anywhere, let alone Sainsburys) so I insisted to my friend who was walking behind me that it was their friend, and not mine. Pfft. So once he realises I'm staring at him like he's some kind of looney, he stops and does a do-over over my friend and says, "sorry, I must have the wrong person", only to have me realise once I walked out of the store that I've met the guy before at his house when I went house-hunting with some of my mates. rofl. My bad. I also realise that he's also a friend of my seniors and has gone over to their place while I'm over there resting my bum in their lovely couch. Anyway, since I've realised my mistake, I quickly find the guy and get over my embarrassing error :-) and now I'm feel less embarrassed than I was when it all first started.

Today I took out some photos of my boyfriend and I and stuck them on my wall :-) It looks nice, though I kind of wish we took more photos together. Getting him to smile at the camera while talking on the phone is a bit hard. Yes, somehow my boyfriend always manages to have a phone stuck to his ear.. well maybe not always, but usually when I want to take photos :-P This is a bit silly, but I've taken photos of us while he's on the phone. :-D He looks good nevertheless, but he's on the phone! i.e. He's not looking at the camera ;-(

I bought a pair of boots today, they're a bit heavy so I guess it'll take a while to get used to them. I've got blisters :-( probably due to the unefficient socks I wear. I must make note to buy higher (maybe knee high) socks in the future to prevent my blisters :-)

The highlight of today: I went to my only class an hour early :-) and I felt like an idiot for being too excited to go to my law lecture today so I went back home to rest for about half an hour while chatting with Adeline who got an offer from Royal Holloway. Congrats babe. Well actually, my error of going to class to early was because I was on the phone with my boyfriend. HEHE I didn't really remember that my class was actually at 10. ^_^ Oopsies. I'll do better next time.

Anyway, I managed to study today and yesterday =) I'm going to try and squeeze in a few topics tomorrow since I've only one revision lecture at 9am in the morning. I'm hoping to stay at home since I realise I've spent a hell lot this month... :-( I'm going to be broke soon. It won't be long until I have to pay my rent. Last month alone, I had more going out than what was coming in. This annoyed me quite a lot since money seems to be scarce around here with me only relying on BSU's monthly allowance and me *trying* to save money and not splurge it in Boots and other places ^_^

I've been at Mas's place like everyday since I got back. Today was to pick up my bracelet because I left it in Yul's room.. Yesterday was because we bought chicken and bought some for their house hold. ^_^ Everyone's lazy. I'm lazy. I don't know why but taking the cab is damn expensive. From their place, which is a 30minute walk and a 5minute ride by car.. it costs £4+ just to get from Royland Road to John Phillips. I hope by the end of the week, I'll get out of my lazy mode and start walking around like I used to before I went back to Brunei. I blame the luxuries of cars we have back home for this, and the fact that I barely did any walking while I was back home. Thanks love ;-) mwah.

Is it me or do the lyric's in Sean Paul's We be burning say "kuey teow"? On second thought, I just checked. HEHE damn these singers. It's "clubbing yo" , "bubbling yo" and whatever. rofl.

I got my law coursework back today, I'm not that happy with it.. but since only one person got 70%I guess I did well enough to get a 2-2 (I got a 54%, tried calling my mum about it but it wouldn't get through). Good, but not good enough. This also means I have to kick ass during the exam which is about oh, 16 days away?

I just realised:
Thursday, 12/1 - Computer Applications in Mathematics Test. Counts as 20% of the module.
Monday, 23/1 - Financial Accounting Fundementals Exam. 50%.
Monday, 30/1 - Microeconomics for Financial Studies Exam. 100%.
Tuesday, 31/1 - Introduction to Law Exam. 70% (or was it 75?).
Thursday, 2/2 - Calculus Test. 3%.
Friday, 3/2 - Linear Algebra Test. - 3%.

As of the 30th, my life will be HELL. The good side of all this? I have no lectures until February. Rejoice.

love,
yasmin.
xx

One photo.

me, qi and li
Originally uploaded by unangelic.

Aimi's taking the shot. Yazid's already left. That's me, Qi and Li at Centerpoint. I'm waiting to be picked up, and they're waiting for Li's driver ^_^

I had a great time with you girls even though it was only for a short bit at Pizza Hut and random walking around =) I'm just a bit sorry I didn't see you guys on my last day.. hehe though I could have swore I told you guys I was leaving on the 4th :p and I wasn't kidding, I've got no idea why any of you would think I was. Haha. I did want to extend it, but mum thought it would be best I go home as soon as possible so I can concerntrate on my studies. She's right of course, because I am suffering from jet lag and I'm exhausted. I hope to get over it in a few days. I just had my first 9am class this morning.. and that's my only class today. Hehe

I miss you girls and guy. =) I'll see you soon. love you.

love,
yasmin
xx

Back again.

Being back in Brunei was good fun. I had a great time with fol, my sis and best friends.. even though I didn't see them as much as I'd like (3 times in fact), but 2.5 weeks of sun must come to an end, and here I am back into the dull weather. It was seriously very cold for me when I first got out of the airport. Thank god I had Moanna to show me where to go (lol), I'd probably get lost or something.

I'm still feeling a bit jetlagged, and kept falling asleep in Mas' couch.. and ended up sleeping over for 2 days. She didn't have any housemates anyway, so I kind of did her a favour by keeping her company or so I'd like to think. I had to drag myself out of her couch just now so I can spend time in my room. Her housemate came back today, so it's alright =) I went food shopping and got the new Motorola PEBL (no Ella, you can't kill me for this) with an O2 contract.

My computer applications test is next week, I'm a bit restless on my economics ponderings. I just hope it turns out okay considering I haven't written any essays since I got here other than for Law. I'll be going back to the daily book grinding and reading by tomorrow as soon as I get over my headache. I'm not feeling very well.

That's it for now. Cheers

Love,

Yasmin.

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

what a way to start the year. =)

The whole site needs a complete over haul. I know no one visits anymore because the site is very much dead. I promise (this isn't a resolution) that once I manage to get a new layout up along with new stuff, I'll update more often than once every month.. in fact, I'll update at least every Sunday starting next week. I'm back in Brunei until the 4th, which is in like 2 days, with Moanna (lmao). Just a short break to get away from the damn and cold back in Loughborough. I stayed at Empire hotel and even went away to KK for a few days. I even managed to see Adeline, Rach, Eddie and TITZ at the same time ^_^ at Swensens. It's been a good break so far, I just kind of wish I didn't have to go back so soon.

My boyfriend's been a complete angel by spending a lot of time with me, even with his hectic schedule. I love you =).

What can I reflect about 2005? These would be my top highlights of every month.

• I meet fol in January with Qi, Jit and Mimi at Taurean.
  
  
• I had a mixed up situation on Valentine's day but got roses from fol and other people, dinner was ice cream from DQ and a 15minute ride in the car before I had to go home :p
  
  
• I went to KL to play netball in March for FOBESSIA, where Aimi was suppose to go but at the very last minute couldn't so I ended up having a whole room (double bed) to myself in the Midvalley Hotel. That was also the time when I told fol that I truly care about him.
  
  
• I had a beautiful birthday dinner at Sheraton with fol in April.
  
  
• I helped out with the AIDS donations in May with Aimi, Nana and Lydia.
  
  
• I sat my A levels in June.
  
  
• I spent July, August and September playing basketball every day and whenever possible.
  
  
• I left for UK and cried my eyes out in September.
  
  
• I made my first few friends in my hall, they were all guys from Hong Kong, namely Savio, Aaron and Frankie. During that month I also made friends with two girls who are now my regular sit-next-to-in-classmates, Souri (who's from Thailand) and Qian (who's from China) .
  
  
• I went to the basketball tryouts in uni and made the team, but decided not to join in because I was still not comfortable walking alone at night.
  
  
• My first raya away from home and family in October, and I spent it with my new friends <3>
• I found out I got the Brunei Goverment Scholarship in November and received my first allowance a month later! Woohoo!
  
  
• I spent a night in London with Iyra and Beelz before going back to Brunei. Thanks for having me you two, you're wonderfulll xxxx

My favourite cousin, Ayie, left for Taiwan yesterday. So guess what happened? =) Being the emotional person that I am, I cried and crieed.. the FIRST DAY OF THE NEW YEAR, and I spent the morning crying. Great start don't you think? I had dinner with my boyfriend and his family that night and had a great time with him :X

Anyway, I'm off. I'll try to live up to my promise ;)

love,
yasmin.
xxx