v3. /fall :)

Well, I finally published the layout I've been working on for a while. Although there are some things that might look messy/misplaces/not properly placed. I still haven't sent my pc to the shop because I've got a whole load of work here that is a little bit too precious for me to get rid off. It looks a little bad if you're browsing through Firefox (as it's my other option of exploring the internet other than netscape since my IE is in a very sad shape). I'll finish tweaking it by next week, hopefully. Other than that. Enjoy :) Just comment if I've left anything out, or something is missing, etc.

I had two study periods today (one before and after lunch), which was nice meaning that I finished all my lessons before noon. We're starting Mechanics 2 coursework next week, and it feels good to get back into the daily grind and watch the funny things that happen around school. I had fun today, because my lessons went by oddly quick and I think I accidently scraped my best friend's elbow on the table. Whoopsie.

I can't seem to get around to how I really want the site to look like, but I'll get there eventually. I wanted to publish this layout almost a month ago, but didn't really have the content/time for it. I must have spent about 5 days just tweaking alone. The manipulating of the images didn't really take long, except when it came to what colour scheme I wanted to use, what brushes were going to be in it and etc. Decision making is hell. :( Luckily for me, I got bored after a while of just trying to get the layout in the right places, I ended up making another layout. Yes, I already have v4 hidden in my closet. :)

My upstair's room is being given a new look, I'm going to get wallpaper, wall to wall carpeting up there. I haven't seen it yet, because I'd rather see it once it's all done in one go. I hope everything turns out right though :D I can't wait to see it.

I think I might be suffering from exhaustion. Since December came around, I've been spending a lot of time at Ayie's house playing basketball with his neighbours & my relatives. It's fun, because they make me laugh due to silly antics. I'm usually the only girl playing, and the guys play rough. I've got bruises in places I'll never see. I'm happy though, because this is the first time I've actually see my cousins every week (and even every day). I love spending time with them, and I do want to have that warm feeling, knowing that your cousins are the best of the best, because in the end, blood is thicker than water. I totally admire the people who have close ties with their cousins. I want that too. :) We're all watching Electra at the Mall tomorrow. YAY!

I want more people in my portal. Add yourself :)

It's late now. Good night!

p.s. Does anyone know where I can get the chocolate fugde pop tarts because they ran out at Utama Grand and Hua Ho? Thanks! :)

How come?

I remember sitting on this very table and knocking my drink up to the point of toppling over with my elbow. Luckily for me (all four times), the mug managed to just take a small angular dip and spill less than 15 ml of water (maybe I'm exaggerating with the measurement bit.. But you have an idea of what I'm saying, don't you?). I must have spilled on a number of papers/books over my life as a klutzy teen. I'm in the thinking process, and it's hard to believe I'm turning 18 in just three months.. The point of my whole paragraph is that life might be like my mug when I hit it with my elbow.. Just when it's about to topple over, it comes back to its normal position and doesn't spill all its liquid contents. Meaning, just because you've lost something (i.e. in the mug's case, a little bit of water), doesn't mean you've lost everything.

I'm a loser when it came to up front confrontation, and I can never usually gather the right words in limited time without letting the words that spill out of my mouth sound idiotic. I hate it when I don't really understand what's going on in another person's perspective because they might not be seeing things the way I am. I hate the misunderstandings that I'm currently facing because I don't know nor have a clue of what's actually happening or going to happen for that matter. Bleh. Dilemmas.

Despite the fact that I might loathe pink, I had a weird time the other day. I guess the photo might be self-explainotory. :) Post-break-up-syndrome.

That, my lovelies, might be the only time I'll wear pink.. and this stuff occurs like once every month/two months ;P

I have a layout that will be up by the end of this week/early next week. School just started today for me, and I'm already suffering from exhaustion. Saw about half my accounting marks (of my latest Budgetary test), which sucked.. I'm on an edge of wanting to re-do my whole test..but I won't because my brain is still in shock from waking up so early this morning. My AS Accounting results came through alright last week though, I managed to get an A. I wasn't convident with the paper, though I don't recall venting much about it. My Mechanics 1 paper, in case no one remembers, I snagged a D the first time. And guess what? I got a high B! I was two marks off an A on this modular, which bombed.. haha I'm just relieved I jumped two grades :)

The guys has two basketball matches today. One for the Under 15's and one for the Over 15's. It's suppose to be for some sort of ISB Bball tourney. I'm not sure if the girls are involved, and if we are.. we haven't practiced since December. Hrr.. I time and score kept (keeped?) for both games. The U15's lost, 32-19 where as the O15's played an awesome 48-38, to JIS's favour.

We've been having a lot of family functions at my house nowadays. I'm finally going to spend time with my favourite cousins this weekend, we're watching a movie at the mall and then gonna play bball at Ayie's house.

Ahh.. I'm out.

xx

exams are overr!!

So I went on a hiatus for a bit..hehe it wasn't g ood for me or for my site, that's for sure. I've been pining away to just post and rant out my thoughts. My livejournal is dead, because well.. for starters, I am the idiot who *accidently* uninstalled my modem and here I am, happily typing away on my second cousin's laptop. :) I'm at a family function at the moment, and have packed my bags for an over nighter at this luxury hotel my friends and I have planned out over the few weeks they've been back.

One of my best friends, Lina, will be going back to Swizerland next week and yes, I know we'll all miss her terribly. As for my other best friend, aQilah, who is also leaving for Brisbane early in February, I will miss her greatly as well. Just thinking about it, and the amount of time I have spent with her for the last 7 months has given me so much confidence, happiness and security..haha knowing that she's my friend throughout the whole shit facade I had to go through, to me, that's what matters today and for the rest of whenever. I love you babes :)

My life has taken an uphill turn towards the top, I might not be at the peak just as yet..but I'll get there eventually because, hey.. what makes me happy, will stay making me happy right? Wrong. Life takes me through different things, stages.. choices even. Most, of which, involve sacrifice..or a wasted oppourtunity cost.

The good news so far? I've got the offers from BOTH the universities I wanted.. and the no. 1 uni (other than LSE, that has already made the decision to cut me), has said YES, with a totally sexy conditional offer. :D IYRA, I'LL BE SEEING YOU SOON. :D

So, that's all from me for now.. Cant update my LJ cos i gotta go =(

love,
yas.

Exams

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Make more enemies than friends. Get your resolution here

I made a new layout for Nayt. =) Check it out and comment.

I'll post soon. I've got a new layout coming up. SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW! Wheee =)

Exam dates;
12th Jan - AS Physics M2+M3 & AS Business Unit 1
18th Jan - A2 Statistics (maths)
20th Jan - A2 Business Unit 4

wish me luck.

note to ZAKU; i can be such an idiot. you know what i did? i didn't read what you said in the [..] bit, so i tried to comment on your latest post..but like it said something about me being spam. HEHE. So, being the dofus that I am, I retried to recomment.. oh and that when I actually read your [..] bit. HEHEHEE *knocks head on wall* =D

note to HAZZER; i love you hazie =( good luck with your exams okay? I'll pray for you. One day I'll live with you =D and uh..hehehe ;) MWAH.

note to YAZIE; 1 \/\/4\7 j0012 GI12LF12I3\1). HEHEHHEE ( the N doesn't work D= )

p.s. FIR; I know you love me <3

I just plugged the whole ILIKEFISH family. HAHAHA and I do like fish <3

Thoughts lead to distraction.. And distraction leads to thoughts of you.

There are too many thoughts going on in my head these days, possibly because it's that time of the year when there are many new things are just waiting to happen, although they're not. It’s just close at hand, lurking in the dark.. waiting for the right moment to pounce out and totally swipe you off your feet. It’s weird, but real. The whole situation is overwhelming. I don’t know what I’m talking about.

I was thinking about beauty competitions and events like it, and I remember watching Ms. Congeniality (SP?), and how most of the contestants were like, "I hope for world peace" bla bla, and the judges soak it up like a sponge. Do people really think about that? I wonder how the world would really be if everything was just dandy? It'd be one helluva boring place. Haha.

If a girl meets a guy, and he says all this gibberish about saving the world and is totally ambitious about his future and what he’s done, etc but you can see he's talking bullcrap, how come the girl doesn't see it? How come she eats it up like she would eat a yummy Mum's bakery Chocolate Fudge cake? I get annoyed when I hear the guys talk to their girls about things they never really have done, and how gullible with big eyes O_O the girls are in believing them. Oh what was that again? If he loves me, he won't lie. Please. Been there, done that.

That was a mean paragraph, I’m sorry if I offended anyone. I was just reading these novels (love stories, you know how they are), and I’m annoyed how the girls in the book or the guys for that matter can’t see how stupid and fickle they are when it comes to that person they’re dating. It’s always boy meets girl, but has a best friend and is actually secretly in love with the best friend, and she loves him. BUT they’re both in denial. AAAHH. It’s a sin, but yet a pleasurable one because I bloody enjoy reading these books, knowing very well that my life can never be anything like it. It isn’t a chick flick anymore, and it’s losing all that drama. I could write about my life story, but as soon as we pass the 14th age, my life stopped being dramatic. It’s not a bad thing, nevertheless it makes up a new meaning for the word dull

I’d like to defenestrate my physics notes and some teachers that keep popping up in my head. Ahh..

Fiz is back from KL, Yazid is back from China. Yayes. Thank god they’re both okay since they were supposed to go to Thailand for NYE.

oh, and my kick ass koala, Marc/Mark says hi.

Acts and hours of boredom lead to being vain, and a lovely webcam snapper. HEEHEHE. My msn display photos ^^

love,
xx
(hahaha! yeap, I made it myself =D)

long day. ha

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =) I spent mine with my best friends and Kel-Vin. Haha. Sorry kel, you'll get there one day xP

This year's resolution is:

• to study more because exams are coming up. My A level's are one of the most important exams of my life, because it will help determine where I'm going to go for university. I know very well that I cannot mess this one up.
• try to take school more seriously because my teachers don't take me seriously. I need to get rid of that barrier and that thought, because they probably realize by now that I am in Year 13 and I will live up to my responsibilities as a student.. and get those grades they predicted me with or better =)
• get less sick during school because throughout 2004 I was becoming very pale and was constantly not energetic at all. I had no motivation in class because I felt drained, and the only thing that could cheer me up wasn't really there for me anymore.
• get well? This would follow up with the resolution above because I'm taking multi-vitamin pills to increase my iron & protein intake (and etc) thanks to my doctor who says I'm anemic, and yeah I should start eating more red meat yeah.
• remember to eat my pills (ew) for the next three months because Jj's reminding me to take them now everyday.
• be a good girlfriend =))
• take up a new hobby because it might fill up my free time or I could just further enhance my skills. I might want to take up art/photography or even learn the piano one day.
• start saving money because I will be starting university soon and I think I ought to learn to have my own cash rather than being financially dependent on my parents.. because I will eventually have to learn to live on my own one day, and it'd be nice to actually spend money that's actually mine, if you know what I mean.
• be nice to my sister cos i love her =))

So! What's everyone's resolution this year? Maybe I can add more to my list. TALK TALK! COMMENT. eheh =))

I had a great new year's eve with my friends, we had dinner at Taurean (I had only a drink tho), and drove around Kiulap and Gadong before finally settling down our arguement of where the hell we were going to go. We went cafe hopping (haha) and ended up at aQilah's house well before midnight. We had Bloomberg on tv as our countdown because Kel-Vin did the exact same thing by watching Bloomberg last year. Haha. It was fun though because we argued whose watch we were going to follow, the watch on the TV was 2 minutes fast (Qi insisted it was right), mine already showed midnight, Jj.'s phone said it was 3 minutes til midnight. lol. The guys on Bloomberg tv were already opening champagne bottles, we were drinking Ice Lemon Tea. Yup, we had a very safe night xP unlike some people I know *cough*. After everyone left, Qi and I crashed on the sofa in front of the tv. I fell asleep after watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Hehe.

I woke up at 8:00A today, didn't get much sleep but the sofa was comfy. Mum picked me up around 9:30A and I took a shower at the club. We were suppose to go furniture shopping for my room, but ahh.. we had to leave a.s.a.p. to Tutong. =) I went to Mum's Bakery with my family. Bought chocolate cakes. YUMMMYY =D They had only two egg tarts left so I made daddy buy those, and bought butter milk biscuits etc etc. Then we dropped my Grandma's place. She left to perform the Haj today. =) I hope she has a good trip. I played with my little cousins (I love Muben and Hakim. Haha) and got to babysit Ahmad, he's so cute. I hung out with Tikah most of the time because she's silly and we always hang out together during family functions. Haha. I ought to take pictures of my family one day, like I used to. Haha. I will, as soon as I save up enough for a camera. We left Tutong around 8:00P and drove to the airport. I stayed in the car because I fell asleep. I think I've been sleeping a lot today, that and I've been eating a LOT. lol =)

meet my kick ass koala, Marc/Mark. Jj gave him to me =)

Tomorrow's another day. Hehe. this is my first post of the year. YAYES! =)) once again, happy new year everyone! hope your one was as good as mine, or better. hehehe

love,
yasmin.
xx.