One month to go.

Exams start on the 6th of June. OH MY GOD. Just over a month to go. I just want to get them all done and over with. And to Hazie who I dearly love, the oral exam went pretty well thank you :) We talked about the books I've read recently i.e. Tuesdays with Morrie and the Five people you meet in Heaven. They're both written by the same author, Mitch Albom.. both books are reading materials that my two examinors have not read. har

I suppose I could say I'm not in the most idealistic moods right now. I feel like crying actually. One would be due to the irritation I'm feeling with the people who 'fixed' angel13 because they removed MS FrontPage. They pissed me off the week before because they removed Adobe Photoshop and Image ready (but I got that back). My latest discovery is the missing MS FrontPage from angel's system. bloody hell.

Another reason why I'm feeling this way would be that I want to cry, and just cry until there are no more tears that want to come out from my eyes. I have been holding in my need to cry for a while now, even with people saying things I wish they didn't, I am yet to just cry.

Three weeks today will be the Sixth Form Grad Ball. Nyeh to that. Sif.


Anyway. What has been happening? As I've mentioned, the non-stop mock exams we've been having have been stressing me out. I might just break down from the mass exam mood, and I wish I could just take the week off and sleep.

I'm suffering from stress symptoms I suppose. I wake up in the middle of the night, like clockwork. Either that, or I can't fall asleep til midnight. I have to be awake by 5:30A to get to school on time or suffer the consequences that teachers seem to threaten us with non-stop.

We've got tons of new school rules. I'm just thankful I only have four weeks of school left because if I had to endure another year of being there I'd just simply die. I'm not saying that it's a bad school or anything, but I think we're beginning to push ourselves into hell zone. Study time is maximized for students; other schools who are doing the same syllabus are on study leave. o.o I don't get what they're doing other than stretching a student's ability that can't be pulled any further.

Student individuality is pulled away, making everyone just clones of one another. I'm sick of it. Blah. Four weeks.I just think it's crazy. but that's my opinion. School is messing me up.

Now I really feel like crying.

Happy birthday 18th Rz.. =)

deviantart.

I was browsing through deviantArt, I have a whole group of Bruneians in my Friends list. I did notice though, that most of them are into anime and those cartoon type of drawings. The photographers of Brunei I've found are kick ass, most of them anyway. I'd say I'm impressed, and very much happy to see this sudden shock of people being active with portraits, drawings with different types of art media from using the mouse and tablet to using just a plain pencil. :) I want a tablet @#$&!!!! *curses* I haven't updated my deviantart for a while now. Waiting for my pc to be fixed :S

angel13 isn't working again, and all I've done so far is just whine about it. Exams are just around the corner and I finished making the posters for the sixth form graduation ball :) but there's still a bit of editing needed as the ball commitee haven't implimented it for improvements.

I have my english O level oral exam this Monday. I didn't take it back in Year 11, so I just thought I'd try it out.. hehe :) I just want my exams to get done and over with. I want to whine about my exams, but then it's not like they're going to change my schedule just for me right? :P though, I'm quite positive that no one in Brunei is doing the subject course line as I am in A levels.. haha I doubt very much that there's anyone doing Accounting, Business and Maths plus AS physics :P haiz.

I might be posting just for the sake of posting. So I'll end it here.

love,
yas.

My day.

I went about the past three days with my hair tied up and lack of energy. It's really hard to believe that school's actually started and in less than eight weeks I'll be a Jerudong International School graduate :) wheehee! My mock exams have started, I had one just yesterday and managed to get a grade A in my first Unit 5 Business mock :)

I have been studying and making full use of my study periods. I found a new book to read called Love Me by Garrison Keillor. The cover they sell in Brunei is available in Best Eastern, but it's a paperback in Redish Pink and there's one left @ $18.80. It's different compared to the books I've read since it's written by a guy through a guy perspective. It's better than If Andy Warhol Had a Girlfriend by Alison Pace. There's only one book left in Best Eastern if you want it and costs about $18.80, heh. Yes, Best Eastern tends to sell 2 books per title in every book store they have. So if you're lucky, you might just get the limited number of copies they sell. Pfft. I wore glasses the whole of today except during PE.. we had netball and I signed up for football this term. It's about time I learnt a new sport to play. Who knows, I might even be good at it :P I'm probably meeting up with Pheng and Bong with Aimi this weekend for lunch which should be fun :)

Gmail is kicking ass with their new system and features. I've been fooling around with my digi a lot and my deviantart is being updated almost daily. I saw a huge spider this morning near the T block girls toilets.. I recorded it's movements for like 30 seconds because honestly? I wanted to catch it. Maybe next time.

Okay, this isn't really a think-about-life post.. so here's a cheer for a different type of post *YAY* Moving on away from that.. I'd like to say thank you to everyone who msged and said happy birthday to me on Tuesday :) I appreciate them so much because it made me feel happy that people remembered..though little hints gave it away.. but it's the thought that counts :)

I want to thank especially: Nayt, aQilah, Yazid, Aimi, Lina, 13, Ranz, tutor group!!!!!, Bubbles (;P), Feefee, Rano, Nizam, Koko Tom, Pheng, Adeline, Hazie, John S. Muneer, Livie, mona, Jo, Aisya, 277, Rahimah <3,Syai, Mayakins, Rachael, Wani, Wajdi, Tinaaaa 51, Jijoy, Azrul (especially you coz you made the crowd sing me happy birthday :D), Karimah, Titz, whoever's number lasts with 1121 cz I don't know who you are, Quan, Jason Lee, Zeer, Eddie, Mummy Una, Jizzy, Abang Ipen, Hafiz, Rz, Melon, Huda and a whole bunch of other people who just surprised me..hehe ESPECIALLY SHANNON :P (yes, that's a lot of plugs.. make sure you click on "new window" so you don't move away from this page.. haha)

Aimi brought in a cake during maths class to add to the cookies I brought to school. I wasn't expecting anything from anyone. She made my day, and made me full of creamy mud cake :P thanks mi :)

Ade and Rach baked me a chocolate cake... hehe :) I had a great night, it was my first time out at night on my birthday.. haha usually I'd be in bed by nine :P Yup, thank you everyone who made my 18th better than I thought it would be. Thank you so much.

so, much love..
yasmin.
xoxo

18 tomorrow..

I'm working on my AS Business Studies unit 3 case study because I'm re-sitting that paper due to a very bad grade. Sigh, exams are just over a month away. We've got 8 weeks of school left, and yes.. I just started school today and I'm already counting. I'm GRADUATING SIXTH FORM.

In my head, I'm doing cart-wheels.. but at the same time, I feel sad. I don't really want to leave school. University. Oh big woord.. Never mind university, not now anyway because:
Exams first = actual results = place in university.
Which university though? Sigh. Exams. Mocks are happening every week. Revision is already happening in accounting because we finished our syllabus back in February. I have to redo some exam papers and look over my mock paper. blah. We're still working our way through chapter 3 in Maths P3, but we've done ever other chapter except chapter 6. God.. Exams are so close. How are we going to revise Mechanics 2 in time? My. God. As for business studies, it's revision.. revision.. refresh your memory.. mocks every week. Unit 5, then unit 6.. unit 5 then unit 6.. blah....... we call it 'demotivating' because it boring and repeatative..

I got an offer to design the sixth form graduation ball (note: it's graduation ball, not your ball. it's the graduator's ball.. not yours). I'm pondering about on it. I wonder if I'll get paid *grins* Ah, that's not at the top of my list of worries anyway. My top worry is my P3 maths.. @#$%!!!!!

I turn 18 tomorrow, woop-tee-doo.. I'm not really sure what I'm doing. I just want to spend time with the person I love, go home.. and sleep. Another day will be over.. and oh, I'm 18 :) I want to drive a car. The weekend, I might just have a little party.. or not. I'll have to think about that. I don't want to feel obligated to invite people just because because.. I wish aQilah, Yazid and Lina were in Brunei though, then I'd really have to plan a party ;P I miss you guys :) mwah..

So, good night..

xx