I've got a story to tell

Have you ever sat down and realize that you're upset about something, when all that time you didn't realize what it was that was causing you hurt? Heh, I've been feeling neglected. I don't know.

I can hear myself saying over and over "they don't care about me anymore" ' I've been saying things like "they don't love me" and even, "they don't like me y'see". I realize that I have said those words a number of times, part of me doesn't want to believe it's true.. but I see it as true now. It hurts. They keep saying they'll make amends. Lies. They say they're sorry. Lies. They say they won't leave me alone anymore. Lies.

Yes, I'm a negative thinker. I don't see the world as half full because in many ways, and from my perspective, it isn't. When I think about the times when people make me cry, it makes me sick. I'm not tripping any more, I shouldn't.

I remember just yesterday, hearing my parents talk. It hurt. I don't know, maybe that's just me. Maybe I'm just sensitive. I wouldn't really care right now. All I know is that I'd like to cry tonight.. the same way I did this afternoon and the days before that.

Anyway, as I've mentioned before, I slept over Adeline's house two days ago. I'm sleeping over Aimi's house tomorrow. Yeah I have a busy weekend. Soo.. web cam photos we took at Ade's house.


Adeline, Rachael and Yasmin.


Ju On Remake. haha Rach & Ade.


Ade with hair tips. Me looking away.


Us looking at the screen.


I never knew how friggin pale I am. See that, I'm as white as a ghost. It's weird..


Hehehe one photo without teeth. ahaha we look like we're pouting.
I just got off the phone. I'm probably more upset than ever. Argh. Currently chatting with Yazid, Sal and Rach. Blegh.. maybe someone's gona cheer me up. What a day. What a day.

I've got a list of things to do. Like what I said in my previous post.. but I'm probably going to postpone that. The whole things I like about me list. I didn't watch a movie today, my leg hurt so I thought I wasn't going to go out. But I went out anyway around 2plus.

Quick summary of today: I ran into Alim, Mel, Emily, Roy, Ali, Sham and some other people.. (yes I'm bad with names. but I know what they look like! Give me credit for that!) of which I only knew maybe four out of the many people I ran into.

Anyways.. after that Alim and I had chicken rice at the Mall food court. I met up with Pie, who lanja-ed me a drink and ice cream at McDs =) Thank you~ ehehe then we met up with Rach. Sat down at West Street Cafe, it's now labelled our 'favourite' for now..ehhee I like the place a lot.

I left around four plus, picked up my sis and then my mom. Went to my grand aunt's place. Went home. Took a shower. Talked on the phone. Oh look, here I am now.

Okay. Bye.