Let me be

Well, today's the day I have my first exam. General studies, conflict. It's only AS level because we're suppose to drop the subject since it's only a core and isn't recognised by most universities (it's a very new subject).

I'm suppose to write up a personal statement, and I don't know where to begin. Can someone please help me with a starting line? :S I have no idea where to start. We're suppose to start applying in August with our predicted grades. I'm still unsure about dropping physics, I don't know if it's a good idea though I don't plan to continue with it in university. I guess my subject options are a bit narrow, but only because those subjects are the only ones of interest to me during the time. Math, Accounting and Business seems narrow huh? I wonder what LSE and Imperial would say if I applied with those subjects :S I guess I'm just paranoid. I know that I want to apply for accounting and finance in both universities..and maybe just keep my fingers crossed at what I want? :S Ah heck.

I don't remember what time I slept last night, sis and I were watching thirteen but mum made us switch it off.. heh =) Those who have seen it, you know what I mean. Blegh. I found the show disgusting, about one third through mum made us turn it off. Ah well.

I think I've gained weight. I've been eating and haven't been doing my usual exercise routines. yes, bad bad yasmin. *spank*. I went to the doctor's last week, on Saturday morning. He said I can't do any sports for six weeks instead =) That's a good thing right? School ENDS in six weeks. Gah =( I start school again on the 15th of June, that's when we'll be commencing with our A level studies. Maybe I should just carry on with four A level subjects instead of three.. or drop two and continue with another AS level subject? Oh man, I need to decide =( This is so depressing..

I'm trying to think what's so special about today. What is it. What is it. Maybe it's someone's birthday and I forgot. Argh. Ten days til my best friend, Aimi, celebrates her 18th birthday =) Five days until Shawn turns 17 with the rest of us!

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamt I ran into an old friend of mine, one of which I haven't spoken to for ages. We haven't spoken because of a misunderstanding maybe, I don't know but right now.. all I know is that I miss her. =(

Anyway. Went to my baby fwap's site. lol She's one of my youngest hostees, I'm not close to her but I sure do love her. =D I'm not sure who's younger.. nayt or her. haha you decide xoxo. AnyWAY. I stole this off her:

[Spell your first name backwards]: adi (my name is Ida Zetty Yasmin btw :P)
[The story behind your screenname]: unangelic is just another name I made up from thinking about someone who's not really an angel but isn't the devil. lol k, this was THREE years ago okay! :P
[How old?]: 17
[Where do you live?]: Brunei

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[Wallet] It's an orgininal burberry's that my mum bought for me when we were in Japan. It's the light brown one, lol. It's heavy and it costs more than the money I have in it. ahahaha
[Jewelry worn daily]: watch, a stud in my second ear piercing and whatever earrings that match my clothes during the day.
[Shoes]: I've got soo many shoes. lol my favourites at the moment are my basketball shoes. They're from Nike and they're blue. High cut, and they say MAX at the front =)
[Handbag]: I've only got one! hahaha Guess 91101.
[Favorite top]: oh wow. I don't know? The fcuk shirts are my favourite..haha
[Perfume/Cologne]: I've got plenty but I don't usually wear them. haha
[Piercings]: I've only got ear piercings. two on the left and one on the right. I'm getting more soon, when I build up the courage to go again. haha one of these days I will get my belly button pierced! I wanna get an eye brow piercing too..but I think mum would kill me.
[What you are wearing now]: Adidas tank top and my red school basketball shorts.
[Hair]: tied up in a bun.
[Makeup]: not wearing any!
[In my mouth]: nothing
[In my head]: hahaha reza reza reza. I'm hungry!!!!!!!
[Wishing]: to stop thinking about food.
[Talking to]: no one
[Eating]: later not now :S
[Some of your favorite movies]: I've always loved movies by Jet Li because of the whole martial arts thing. I should learn to do karate one day..haha
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: upcoming month? Well, my bestfriends.. Lina, Aqilah and Reza (no not the one I mentioned just now) are all coming back next month! I can't wait!!!
[The last thing you ate?]: Microwaved chicken.
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: I'm scared of losing :S
[Do you believe in love]: yes
[Do you believe in soul mates]: yes
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: yes
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: not really. it takes time for me to forgive. i have a different philosophy for forgiveness.
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: kitty cat!
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: salt and vinegar lays!!!!! cheezballs, malteasters, m&ms.
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: I wish I could understand why people always try to keep me apart from the things/people I love.
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: ARGH. I miss Reza 1, Reza 2 (rofl), aQilah, Lina, Masyitah..

In the last 24 hours, have you:
[Cried?]: um. yes.
[Bought something?]: I bought cookies!
[Gotten sick]: yes.
[Sang?]: I sang along to the whole busted album yesterday.
[Eaten?]: yes.
[Been kissed?]: no.
[Felt stupid?]: totally.
[Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't?]: not really.
[Met someone new?]: nope.
[Moved on?]: little steps will eventually lead to bigger ones.
[Talked to an ex?]: yes.
[Missed an ex?]: a little bit.
[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]: definately!!!
[Had a serious talk?]: no because no one EVER takes me seriously.
[Missed someone?]: yesssssssssssssss
[Hugged someone?]: nope.
[Fought with your parents?]: yesterday
[Dreamed about someone you can't be with?]: no

Personal:
[Who is your role model?]:oh I got plenty. but I only take different parts of them and together, they combine the perfect person.. that's who I wanna be. =D
[What is some of your pet peeves?]: what's a peev?
[Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?]: yes
[Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?]: that happens a lot doesn't it?
[Do you have a "type" of person you always go after?]: i used to, but screw it. haha the guy I like meets my requirements.
[Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you?]: sometimes. but I don't want to because that's not nice.
[Rather be dumper or dumped?]: I'd rather be a dumper. I hate getting dumped, it frigging hurts.
[Ever liked your best guy/girl friend?]: lol yes, we went out together after that. Lasted almost two years, but sadly enough that had to end.
[Do you want to get married?]: yes
[Do you want kids?]: yes, but not too many :S two or three is enough. haha
[Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time?]: I don't know..
[What is your favorite part of your physical appearance?]: I like my eye brows. hahahahahahaha oh I like my legs too..hehehehehehe
[What is your favorite part of your emotional being?]: my thoughts are distubing, so I don't like that. i like the fact that I love to type up my thoughts.
[Are you happy with you?]: sometimes, but most of the time, especially when I'm alone, I'm not that happy.
[Are you happy with your life?]: yeah, but there are times when I think I'd just want to give up.
[If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be?]: Take away these depressing throughts in my head..

ANYWAY. lol =D I'm done. I miss the three girls. I don't really know why, haha I guess it's because I didn't really hang out with them before they left to NY =\ It's okay, you guys are gonna come back soon right? =) We'll catch up then. Diya, I'll e-mail you when i get the time k? lol. I'm so busy with exams right now. luv ya tons! xoxox.

I'm so friggin hungryyyyyyyyy..