Happy Birthday Rach =)

This might be about an hour delayed so screw you if you think I'm late. Haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHAEL YEO who turned 18 about 25 hours ago. Sorry I didn't post any earlier, I came home late.

Hm, I don't really have much disturbing thoughts rotting my brain right now because I am in a feeling of content. I'm happy. Isn't that just weird? Things are falling into place, as anticipated by many. And yes, some things in life are worth waiting for even though you haven't the slightest idea of what they may be. I'm grateful, to have friends who have managed to make me laugh and allow me to get through my day. I have been stressed out for the past month, due to exams and utter exhaustion by my teachers. I can't keep up the pace yet, because of the demands from teachers I'm given.. I'm sorry if I haven't done much of anyone's work (let it be classwork or homework) lately.. but there's only one of me and there's only so much I can do.

Being depressed has always put me into a different perspective compared to others. I see the downside of things when people would much rather see the opposite. I wonder why people begin relationships that they know will eventually fail. I'd say I used to be like that, beginning relationships that I know will eventually fail, though I know neither of us would have wanted it to end the way it did.. but what can I say? Conflicting interest, beliefs and religions always make big impacts and changes in a relationship, even if a special understanding has been created between the couple.. It's always the outside pebbles that are trying to break into the force field that disturb the peace and harmony of those who are happy.

It's true isn't it? Wouldn't you just hate it if you saw someone who's happier than you? Better off than you? It's all petty jealousy. I can admit that I am jealous when I think about the people around me who have found their soul mates or 'love of their lives', because I want that too. But I'm not going to get together with some guy just for the sake of it. I want my next relationship to last.

I will post about Rach's party and what I did tonight later.. but..

It's late. I'm off to bed. Good night.

love,
yarz.