I've got issues. In this list, it would include my ex-boyfriend, a person who calls herself a friend and a whole load of bullshit I have to go through. I'm not happy. I haven't been happy for the past few days, I'm just so fucking pissed. Coming back to Brunei hasn't been all butterflies and lillies and chilli padi's man. It's just.. so argh. Maybe it's my fault, I come home expected to be supported in some way, you know just help me keep my head up. BUT NO, I COME HOME TO A TRUCK LOAD OF ZILLIONS OF QUESTIONS. What? I'm too hyper that it's fake? argh. Am I not suppose to be happy? Is my break up trivial? Is LIFE a game to you?

The weekend in London was nice, it was good to be with Moans again.. shopping, dinner, the works. She's forever my girlfriend and now, my wife. I love her to bits. She's such a doll. I love you sweetheart, always. We shopped, went to little venice with Kaz and Shahyzul. Talked about the idiocracy of life.. xxx

Mus drove Qian and myself down to London, we left Loughborough at 5am in the morning.. Mus woke me up at 4am when all of us only slept at like.. 2 or 3. We arrived in London around 730 or so, because of detours etc. We toured the HMS Belfast, took photos at tower bridge, ate ice cream, hung out, ate at Mawar's and then they went back to lboro :-( I felt so sad when they left. I wasn't used to not being in their company. When I think about it, they're the ones who brighten up my day..and don't make it seem as messed up as it feels. Sigh. I miss them both :-(

I wrote all of that yesterday, I'm feeling less trivial right now.. just a bit drowsy. Didn't sleep til about 3am last night and I got Fiz, Padil and Chong to come over last night to bum here for about an hour before finally going to bed. ::giggle:: We watched all those stupid videos on youtube ^_^ funny stuff right there :-D

I felt like going shopping yesterday, but that didn't happen.. might go today to Hua Ho and get some sports gear for myself. Finally went swimming yesterday. It was a huge stress relief for me. Pfft~ I didn't go for four days in a row after saying I was going to.. talur banar. I just couldn't find the time to and I kept over sleeping. I'm still jetlagged, I sleep through most of the day and I can never find any 'me' time. Haiz.

I wanna go to Singapore. I want. I want. I don't know. I'm going crazy here, I get too lonely sometimes.. I'm scared of going out aone, I'm scared. Terrified really. I'd go out, but I don't have anyone to go out with.. everyone's busy.. or I just don't wanna hang out with them.. I don't knoww la~ maybe it's me for not asking them to go out, maybe its them for not asking me. nya. banyak fikir lah. shiit.

okay, going to eat now.