I had a lot to think about.

My cousin slept over last night, we went to bed around midnight and were both reading novels before actually drifting off into dreamland. We didn't even talk before going to bed. Haha, but we had nice conversations in the car which was totally cool because I prefer talking outside the house rather than in.

I'm sitting here thinkin' about
How I'm gonna do without
You around in my life
And how am I gon' get by
Ain't got no days, just lonely nights
If you want the truth, well I'm not alright
Feel out of place, and out of time
I think I'm gonna lose my mind
I woke up around eight past, because I could her my cousin's younger brothers screaming downstairs playing with the fooseball table. I have had strange dreams before, and I always take my dreams seriously. I don't really know why but I guess its because at most times, my dreams are like predictions and I have a weird sixth sense. Even though they act like predictions, they don't exactly happen word for word.. but some of the things that happen in my dreams do happen. It's just freakishly weird.

So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (you only)
Do you dream of me at night
(It's like I dream you all the time) so lonely
Oh let me tell you how it feels
(It's like everday I die)
Wish I was dreamin' but it's real
(When I open up my eyes)
Oh let me tell you how it feels
(And don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again
Funny, because I woke up this morning with full of mixed emotions. I feel sad, and yet at the same time I feel relieved. I feel happy and yet, at the same time I'm holding back my tears. I've been going through a lot I'd like to think, and seeing things I didn't wish to see didn't really help me much either.. but in a way, I should have known that things would turn out the way they did. Sometimes I am grateful that they have, but there are times when I'd just curse those people to the other direction of heaven.

I miss your face, I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here, it's clear to see
If there ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I can't have you in my life
I am totally head over heels over someone. I'd like to think of it as a good thing, I would say.. but I guess I've got a lot of thinking and re-thinking to do before I do anything that might involve another session of happiness mixed with emotions of sadness and probably sandbags of tears (heh, didn't make sense did it now?) never mind, that's between me and my thoughts. Let's just say that I'm totally happy and I'm grateful that I've met my someone.

I've got a bruise on my arm. I bruise too easily, I don't know. Blegh, I think it's from an accident I had just now when I accidently banged into Reza's watch. Maybe. I met up with ko Jay and Jon today after not seeing the both of them for maybe over three/four months. I was eating with Kaka Fizah when ko Jay, Jon and Rez came to join out table. =) Ko and Jon went to watch Harry Potter. I watched the movie with my mum and sis on Thursday afternoon, personally.. I think the movie could have been better (i.e. it wasn't all that). Despite the hype that the movie's created, it wasn't as good as the first one or the second one. I lothed both the movies, but I'll say this now: both movies were seriously much much better.

I still haven't seen the day after tomorrow movie, Rez says it's not that good. Mum and dad loved it :S I don't know. I guess I'll have to find out myself ey. I'm gonna watch Harry Potter again on Thursday cz I'm bringing Kaka out. it feels weird typing up kaka..haha because those of you who know me.. I don't have an older sister, a real one for that matter..haha Kaka Fizah's my mum's younger sister's daughter. She's the only one I refer to as just 'kaka' where as all my other cousins will have the full uh, name.

I'm online now, chatting with Reza from Pakistan and Hadi. Both are very close to me. ehehe and VERY open to me. haha =)

Tonight and yesterday were confession days..hehe an 'outpour' of emotions right baby? =) I'm thankful though. I miss you like crazyyy though.. 5 days til I see you again =) blegh, so long. miss ya! xoxo.