promises.

I just got back from school a few hours ago. Sat my OCR Mechanics 1 paper. It was not good. I didn't like it except for the last question, which was the one I thought I'd get stuck on so I revised that one like crazy.. and the other questions turned out to be worse. Sigh, guess today wasn't that much of a perfect day. I was jittery and had pre-exam nerves. It really wasn't my day.

Here's an interesting article: (click, courtesy of Brandon)

Regular sex helps students
A German sociologist Werner Habermehl says regular sex can help university students pass exams and get better grades.

Habermehl from the University of Hamburg said he and his team had tested students before and after sex.

They found that regular sexual activity significantly increased mental capability, but they found celibate students found it harder to make the grade.

As well as decreasing the length of time needed to complete a course, students with a healthy sex life also received better marks, said Habermehl.

The research was carried out together with German research institute GEWIS.

*giggle* Sigh, anyway.. I'm currently chatting with Brandon, we're talking about the mechanics exam. Rach is online as well, we're talking about her exam..read the tagboard to get a vague idea how she's feeling. Anyways, I'm going out with Kaka Fizah tomorrow to watch Harry Potter and her brothers' might join us, I'm not that sure. I'm meeting up with Khalid and maybe Hadi before that though. Oh, my best friend's back. YAY Reza Mustappa is back. YAY. YAY. YAY. I'm gonna see him on Friday. YAY. YAY. YAY. After one year of not seeing him in the flesh, let's hope he's bulked up ;D ehe mwahs. missed ya babyjoe. hugs.

I've got a lot on my mind right now. I don't know why I'm hurting so much.. I can't really start pointing fingers. It's just not right. I'm thinking about the promises I've been given by people, most of them have been broken. I guess that's why I don't bring myself to make promises to anyone because I know there will be a point when I can't keep them. Everything feels like a burden right now, my head hurts and I feel like crying. It's not right is it?

I remember dating this guy who used to tell me I was his world. I always wondered if girls actually fell for that line the way I did. I guess I was too guilble to see what was really going on around me because to me, he was my world. As a result of having 'love' blind me, I had everything that had meant everything turn around and slap me. Now, eventhough I can say that I have slowly moved on (not fully, but I'm getting there), I know I will always think back every now and then.. because that's part of life.. reliving memories.

I've got beautiful friends. They do mean something to me.. and yet, they still cannot see what really goes on in my eyes. I don't really confide in people that much, not even to my closest friends. I find it hard to let people see what happens inside of my morbid thoughts because I don't know how to trust people that much anymore. You see, almost four years ago.. I saw my life shatter in front of me.. I had my heart broken. I know that as of that point in time, I will never trust anyone as much as I used to. blegh.

Geez, I wonder why I'm still up at this time of night. I think I'll go to bed now.. I miss Ade and Rach. I wonder how you girls are doing? Nyah. I wish you would use the commenting system =P I mean, that's what its there for right? hehe hugs. I put it up for ADE and the other people who TAGGED and said that I SHOULD put it in. God I miss you two..