Friday, August 13, 2004

Just memories.

My eyes are blurry right now, probably from the tears I'm holding back. I can't really express how upset and hurt I'm feeling right now.. but I'm going to try. I walk in and out of depression every time don't I? Some how I've always managed to heal and I'll be okay for a while. Then, everything starts reoccuring, memories resurface and here I am, tumbling down the steps of memory lane.
My soul is weak. I know I've been pulling myself away from people, once again.. but this time I think I really mean it. I've been spending time alone, at home. I've gotten a lot of thoughts cleared out. Here's what I've come up so far;
  1. I'm a burden.
  2. I don't deserve to be happy.
  3. I'm miserable.
  4. I miss my friends.
  5. Everyone I'm close with needs to know that I love them very much...

I hate to think that people are saying I'm not being appreciative. I'm trying to be, maybe I just need more time. Sigh, I need to pray..

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

These wounds won't seem to heal,this pain is just too real,there's just too much that time cannot erase...

Anonymous said...

These wounds won't seem to heal,this pain is just too real,there's just too much that time cannot erase.....

My Immortal,Evanescence.

Hang In There..

Anonymous said...

Bonita's link is laislabonita.net and Faten's link is iheartboo.com. :)

Anonymous said...

Yas... I wish I understood you better. But anyway: *hugs* You can be such a sad, sad girl...

- Hazirah

PS Pretty layout!

Anonymous said...

i know exactly how you feel. =/ cheer up. *hugs* -- Jo