I was thinking, maybe I want to be happy once in a while. I don't know why I'm always feeling really down, but then again that might be just me because I'm weird and I really don't think I deserve to be happy. To speak out honestly, I really don't. I'm thinking maybe my subconcious is working over time because when I do realize that I am happy, I'll bring myself down from the clouds.
Besides this being my forth attempt to post today, I guess I'm just lacking words and encouragement to post. I haven't been in the mood to post lately and I really don't know why. I guess I'm a bit upset and it seriously sucks. I've gone back to playing pool online, with Bin and Yazid A. being my regular pool partners online. Heh, talk about nothing better to do with our lives.
I stayed home the whole day today, and I've been forbidden to go out at night.. whatever that means. I watched the national geographic, sabrina animated series.. half the time of flicking through the tv shows, I tried avoiding opening AF. heh. I really don't like the show.. its like an intrusion of privacy you know? Watching people doing whatever.. hearing, watching.. it's stupid. Hiang bought me credit. He's so sweet. :) I came home at midnight last night, went out with Hazie and Yazidy. We picked Hazie up at her place then we drove down to Gadong to meet up with Hiang and Deno at Excapade. Played pool at Arena and got my ass kicked as always. hahaha I don't know eh, everytime I play with Hiang.. I always lose. :P Hmpf. Ah well.. Enough of that
My best friend in the whole world. What can I say about Rz? His name is Muhammad Reza Mustappa, born on April 30th 1987. I'm older than him by 25 days and we first met at Utama Bowling Alley in early April 1999. I used to go bowling with him every Friday afternoon and on Sundays if we don't have family functions. This guy has seen me through rapid changes, from the time I first started dating my first serious boyfriend all the way to now. He used to attend MSPSBS and unfortunately for both of us, he's now living in Pakistan, and studying I.B. in an international school there. He'll be graduating in June 2005, the same time as me..so hopefully we'll be able to go to the same university or something together..hehe Sorry girls, but he's taken and booked. :) He's lived there for two years now, and I'm only able to see him once a year.. and take it from me, it sucks. Luckily for us, there's always MSN messenger and e-mails. Thank god for that. He's always been there for me when ever I needed him, and it is true when he says that I'm the only one he can never imagine having a fight with..because we're always there for each other..lol, and we don't have disagreements, just.. unresolved discussions. lol. He means the world to me, and I love him for everything that he is. So, I'm taking this oppourtunity to thank him now..and just remind him that I'm always going to be there for him.. I miss you babe. mwah. xoxo.
Earlier on Saturday morning, I was stuck at home until past lunch. I went to Adeline's house, I don't really know why I came over because she didn't need me anymore for anything. After that, I left to pick up Aimi.. we went to Gadong and bought lunch and some water to bring to our game at 4. I watched the first two final matches, ISB vs. MS girls, which of course ISB won =D cos they rawk!! haha the second final match was for the guys, MD 1 vs. MS.. I think MD 1 won..haha it was a good game =) The third and forth games were for the Bronze. Our game was versus St. Andrews. Unfortunately, we lost. I think most of us were under a lot of pressure and yeah, we were at each others throats. The last game was ISB vs. SMJA. lol. Aimi says that international schools stick together.. so yeah, congrats to both ISB teams.. ehehe =D
Anyway.
I have a headache and I'm not in the mood again.
laters,
yas
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