I spent most of my weekend at another hall, eating and cooking there ^_^ It was all in fun, me and mustanir played with his new camera most of the day.. you can see photos if you look in my flickr, or his :-) It's revision week here in Lboro, next week will be week 13.. the start of mother of exams.. o.o Most of us are either screwed or going to be screwed. How did the weeks go by so fast? It feels like I haven't really left Brunei that long eh.. Technically since I came home every holiday, I didn't actually "leave".. but if you think about it, I've actually completed a whole year of university, away from home, in UK.


I remember I used to get upset over the tiniest things. Life in Brunei is just so laid back, no wonder people from the rest of the world think we're rich and spoilt. One difference in living here and in Brunei (for me) is that you have to live on yourself. The only person you can actually truly depend on is you. No one's going to wake you up in the morning, no one's going to make you go to class.. no one is going to ask you, "have you studied what you learnt today?"

Coming here, you have to be independent.. you have to know how to clean your own room, do your own dishes.. Basically run your own life. In Brunei, you had a maid to cook, clean and prepare things for you (for me anyway). I could get away with sleeping in until the afternoon and not worry that I haven't done my laundry because all of that is done for me.

I know a few people who have never cooked nor cleaned their whole life, and can you imagine being unable to do things that you're expected to know when you're at university stage? When you get to university, it's like everyone expects you to grow up, live life like an 'adult'. I wouldn't really go as far as being 'mature' .. but you're walking along that path anyway.


One of the things I hate is the loneliness I feel when I'm here.. Partly because of my lack of social life which is probably because I don't do much to change it.. Maybe next year. It took me a while to make friends in my lectures, let alone make friends with other people. Back home, it felt so easy.. all I had to do was go up to them.. Here, it's like a whole different board game. Who do you say hi to? How do you go up to them without feeling/looking so stupid? Most of the angmos here are quite friendly but I haven't really found any that I truly 'connect' with as a friend.. it's just those random passer-bys ("hey." "hi. you alright?" "yeah" end of story). It's all the same.. I just hope next year will be better.

My social circle here is no different than the one I have in Brunei, it's funny how people seem to just stick to their own kind.. I guess that's just how we're taught to grow up and that's just.. a natural thing for people to do. My friends here are mostly Chinese (just like it is back in Brunei), if we don't include the Bruneians.. and I haven't really been hanging out with the Bruneians much.. I can't really say why because I don't really know. I just hope it's just a phase I'm going to get out of.. I wouldn't say it's me that doesn't want to hang out with them.. I guess our paths and social networks just don't cross very often.

I remember if it weren't for one of them coming up to me after one of my accounting lectures, my friend would probably just be Savio in those classes. I've got my eye on a few angmos that I find interesting.. haha maybe my circle will expand that way in the next academic year :-)

A whole week of not blogging.. My moods escalate just like the weather. It's rained almost every day.. making my life feel gloomier than ever.

Come on Summer. Show me your sun.

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