When you're not the one who's unable to get restful sleep for a week, do you kinda worry about that other person? It's not that I haven't been able to get 'restful sleep for a week', it's just been a couple of days. Then there's the whole being forgetful thing. I was suppose to go meet up with Koko Kev after my lecture today, and it completely slipped my mind.. and I reminded myself about it just half an hour before the actual meeting. Instead of waiting for him, I somehow managed to absentmindedly walk all the way back to my hall. :-\ I think these are symptoms of stress. I think I am stressed :-(

It's actually 11:04pm right now, and I'm suppose to be asleep to get as much rest as I can.. but I don't know..when ever I climb in to bed, a feeling of lonliness overwhelms me. Is that even normal? I get upset whenever I think about how alone I feel. You know, even when you do have a significant other, it's not enough that you're alone physically.. especially when they can't always be there for you mentally.

I went to all my lectures today, even the ones I didn't enjoy going to. There's only two weeks of uni left until revision week start .. then the exam starts to pile up. :-) I can't wait to get it all done and over with so I can go home and sleep every day with no worries. Nyar! I'd probably end up making cakes every day, but who cares? My family loves the stuff I bake.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE NG :-)
You're 18 now, all big and legal. That doesn't mean you can start going off and
doing illegal things :-P I love you sweetie and I know you wanted me to come
back for your birthday but that's going to have to take a raincheck. And because
I'm broke, I can't afford to send you any presents right now so you're going to
have to wait until I come back to Brunei so we can exchange gifts because you
still haven't gotten me my 19th present either :-P Believe me, I remember. Well
sweetheart, we've been friends for four years now and I think that's a pretty
long time don't you? We've had our differences and had those fights where we
don't talk to each other for a month but after a while we do realise who
our real friends are.. yada yada yada :-) I love you babe, I hope your 18th was
wonderful and I'm sorry I'm not there to make a surprise party for you. hehe
Last year was crap for me because I didn't spend your birthday with you, so this
year.. well, it's no different. But I promise, once all of this uni stuff is
over for you and I, we are so going to waste our time together for our own
birthday celebrations. Hehe Take care of yourself, and I'll see you soon at the
basketball court and Swenson's!! mwahs. xxxx

So. I made a new layout today, it's seriously seriously simplified. I'll be adding things to it every now and then, but for now I guess it'll have to do since I onnly worked on it for a few hours to take a break from studying tonight. I didn't feel like studying, so I ended up doing a lot of thinking. I am so going to have puffy eyes tomorrow.

Life sucks. I have no idea where my boyfriend is. So. It. Really. Sucks.