get out.

I woke up this morning, actually feeling relieved that I slept the whole night through without waking up. My head feels a lot clearer and I know I have less worries compared to the amount of troubles I've been having the past few days. My last update was four days ago, and even then I didn't really have much to say.. probably because I didn't.

I, I don't know why
Why you need some reason to feel lost inside
You, you know that I'm alright
You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles

Oh man, I'm drowsy right now. I wish I could just go back to sleep, but today is really hot.. I've got the airconditioning on, as well as the fans. Haiz, but it's still hot and I can just feel my body wanting to sweat. It's the 29th today, meaning in less than 24 hours, I'll be back in the old grind of every day rants of school and every day bitching of pain in the neck jerks. But I'm not really like that, Aimi and I made a pact to try to stop gossipping about people.. it's not a good habit, so it must be broken.

I don't use excuses
Don't ask why
It's just a breakdown
It happens all the time
So get out of my face
Don't even try
You wanna help me, just let me cry

I went down to KB on Wednesday night, I was out with my mum and sister earlier in the day.. I can't really remember what we did. To be honest, I have no idea. Haha. Or wait.. I think mum, sis and I watched aku No. 1 at the Mall Cineplex. I've been watching movies a lot with my mum huh? The movie was good, hilarious at that. The audience interacted with the movie..haha which was another funny thing about how malay people watch movies.. they talk. Haha. Sometimes they repeat what the characters say, or they imitate them.. lol, or even say their opinion out loud. It's funny. And I admit that I am part of the guilty party.. but it didn't annoy all the other partons because they'd be doing something similiar..haha It was all in fun anyway :) After the movie, mum and I went to buy the skirt I liked at Bingo. haha It's white with black flower prints. :D

Yeah I loved you all my life
You don't even know a thing I feel inside
No, by the look in my eye
That I'm just fine but I might need you to hold me tight

The trip to KB wasn't that long, it took us about an hour or so and Chelle's house wasn't that hard to find.. it was all about going straight (that is, if you knew where you were going..haha) I picked up Aimi at about 5+, mum dropped me off at her place first so I could change. Then she came back about 30minutes later with my dad to pick me up. lol, we didn't get lost looking for Chelle's house..hehe its biggg.. lol. When we arrived, Adeline, Rachael and Randy were already there. We arrived at seven-ish, and the food was great..hehe so delish =D BIRTHDAY GIRL WAS EIGHTEEEEENNNNN ehehe mwah. We left at about 9plus, dad decided to drive slowly..haha so we got back around to dropping Aimi off around 10:20pm. We arrived home at 11:15 maybe, I don't remember.. lol.

On Thursday, I stayed home all day.. I went out at night to watch AVP with Hiang, Fidz and her friend. The movie was gorry and ugly and horrible. lol But I liked it. Haha. Fidz and I went all "ewww" "omg" and stuff..hahaha sheesh. My darling came at 8 when the movie started at 730 =P haiz. We went to Coffee Zone after the show and hung out with Hafiz, Zaza, Ali, Syai and the brother.. Airul came a bit after. I had to force my sister to go home because she didn't want to..haha Oh oh.. and I also saw Nizam (after three years of hosting his site) for the first time in the flesh..hahaha

On Friday, I had full intentions of staying home and just bumming around.. but after much presistence from my sister who managed to convince my parents to take her to school to buy school uniforms and etc, we ended up spending time in Gadong.. I didn't eat because I had a headache. There was some sort of inforama going on at the Ground floor of the Mall. My sister wanted to play pool, and I didn't. So we compromised and I went to Coffee Zone, while Mum, dad and sis went to Arena to play pool. I saw Maya, Aisya, Khalid and a bunch of other people there.. I even saw Kaka Fany =D I went to eat at McD's with Maya. I ran into Randy there, gave him a biggg hug. After a while, Hafiz texted me and said he was coming to Gadong with Zaza. So they met up with me while I was at zone. After a big blow up in a phone call, I cried.. threw my phone across the table, which Hafiz catched. Heh, Zaza and Hafiz spent the whole night trying to cheer me up. I felt heaps better after that.. I went home around 8plus, mum and dad came to pick me up after they had dinner with my sister at Escapade.

I think I slept at 3am in the morning that day, haha I stayed on chatting with Hiang, Adeline, Rachael and etc. I woke up at 8:30am the next day.. my grandmother started calling the house at 7am. MY GOD. The phone was in my room! BLAAA.. I saw my darling at 11am in Gadong. lol, he claims to be on holiday..whatever lah =P He was with Leslie, and we went to Zaza so I could make an appointment to do my hair around noon. Hehe, I had breakfast at the food court Mall.. After that they dropped me off at Zaza again, and I did my hair..hehe I've got black and blonde streaks in my hair now.. :) I steamed it too. lol. I absolutely adore my hairdresser..hahaha I don't know why. I stayed in the salon for almost 3 hours before going down to Coffee Zone to meet up with my sister. I was suppose to meet up with my boyfriend, but he took a while to get to Gadong and I got impatient and left. haha I went to see Rachael at DBliss above KFC..hehe I got bored and was hungry so I called my mum to pick me up because I didn't think Rach was going to be done anytime soon.. so yeah, instead of having lunch.. mum and dad picked me up and we went home. My relatives from KL stopped by to say hi and check the house out..hehe I had fun. After that, mum and dad sent me back to Gadong so I could meet up with Rach again. We hung out until 8plus before Titz (did I mention he has a new ass spanking layout? check him out!), Ade and Eddie joined us at the Mall. But then, my parents watched a movie that ended around 8:45pm so Rach and I had to leave shortly after because I was sending her home.

I got home at about 10pm, and took a niccee long shower. I had my dinner before going upstairs and then went online. I think I stayed on until past 2am. I can just hear the zit fairy coming..hahha sheesh. I should start sleeping early. School starts tomorrow.. I've been at home all day, I took a shower as soon as I woke up around 9:30am. I was suppose to go to a wedding in Tutong, but that got cancelled.. we might go to Tutong later though to say good bye to my relatives from KL and say hi to my grandmother..and get kicked by my small cousins..haha After my shower, I changed back into my pjs..and here I am.. still in my pjs. I just can't be bothered to wear anything else..haha.. chatting with Hiang and Fidz now.. I was chatting to Rz earlier, I miss the guy a lot. We were talking about relationships and how much our friendship has grown over the past 6years.

and now I have a headache again :(

love,

yarz.