Left without a word and nothing to say
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God
I miss ade and rach. I haven't hung out with them properly for ages. Bleh. I'm trying to but I can never seem to find time and it sucks. I still freak out when they try the whole sony thing XP it's freaky. I try not to freak, but I still do. hehe. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I just freak at stuff like that. Sheesh, I'm such a hyprocrite. But a lovable one at that. Haha. Oh well, hopefully after my exams I'll have more time to spend with you two, and I will try not make myself stay home because that seems to be what's happening right now. I've been staying at home, just bumming around.. trying to relax my mind. I'll go out for about an hour or two, spend time with some people that I haven't seen for a bit.. then go home and rest.
From the heavens above
Sent me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God sent me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Then again, maybe I've done too much relaxing because I actually am learning to enjoy staying at home. I don't hate my house as much as I used to, but yeah.. I like it a bit better now. I'm learning to say no to friends when they ask me to go out, because.. well, I don't want it to take over my life like it once did. There's only one of me, and plenty of other people who want me to go out. sigh. It sucks because some people start to think I don't wanna hang out with them because I'm always with other people.. I hang out some more frequently than others, but it's not intentional. It never is. I never mean to hurt anyone. =( I hate being accused of things like that.
School holidays started on Friday. I spent the weekend in Singapore with my family though I barely saw them during the trip. Haha. A few of my close friends went down to Singapore for their Oxbrige (oxford, cambridge) interviews. I spent the first night there out with Hazie, we had Haagen Daz across the street..hehe yummy =D and got back to the hotel around 11:30pm because well, we were 'tired'. I spent the next morning with Hazie too, we ran into Brandon in the streets of Orchard Road (omg), and actually walked from our hotel to the hotel Aimi and Michelle were staying in at the end of Orchard Road. Man, ngalih lahhh.
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries
Anyway, mum and dad bought my sis and I tickets to watch Mama Mia at the Esplanade Stadium. For tickets that cost SG$132, it seriously was worth it. I had a great time even though we had to wait 30 minutes for a cab to actually come. Haha. Aimi and Michelle were waiting for me at the hotel when I got back, they had packages and bags of shopping stuff. My goodness how those girls can shop. Haha. I stayed out with them til late, and Rz texted me around midnight.
He had good news =) He's coming back to Brunei. He's coming home. haha. I was so frigging happy, I felt like dancing on the street. HAHAHA. But then that would appear like I'm crazy or something.. dancing around. Anyways, I slept in the next day, woke up around 9am (yes, that is late to me). Mum bought me a watch from Burberry's. It's so nice =D I can't wait to wear it in school.
From the heavens above
Sent me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God sent me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Shahyzul arrived in Singapore around 1pm. I met up with him an hour later at Borders. We went shopping, he bought about SG$120 worth of CD's. Personally, I think he's nuts for spending that amount of money on CDs.. but then again, we're suppose to be against piracy right.. heh, right.. after that we went to Far East Plaza after a longgg walk from HMV.
I bought.. a lot of t-shirts. Haha. I bought about 4 shirts from Ice Lemon Tee, 5 from I Inc and 2 from Crazy Bones. Haha. Don't worry Ade, Rach.. I did get you something XP I'll pass it to you when I see you.. but you have to be together at the time because I can't decide who gets which colour. Haha. mwah. I bought the Nelly Suit CD. I wanted to get Sweat as well then I started doubting myself because I hate wasting money on CDs. The CD's quite nice actually, very sexy tracks. Haha.
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now
But you can't have it
God
Anyway, I left for the airport around 7-ish. My flight was around 10pm back to Brunei. Hrr.. there were a lot of Japanese boys wondering around at the terminal. lol. I looked, but didn't touch XP I went online, hoping to chat with those two girls, but they weren't on. But I did webcam with Rz and Khalid.
Arrived back in Brunei a little after midnight. Miss called all of them, except for Ade who's phone was busy XP I slept in on Monday, with no intentions of going out. I didn't feel like it, nor could I have been stuffed to go. But I went out anyway.. but only for a bit to have dinner with Hafiz, cos he asked so nicely. Aimi and the rest of the Oxbridge people came back on Tuesday. I stopped by her house to pick up the brownies I asked her to buy for me.. hehe I think I stayed there for about half an hour or something. We just hung out in her room and talked about her stay in Singapore.. and some other things.
I realize that I'm not getting any younger (lol), and I am learning not to let people take me for granted. I'm pulling myself back from the things I normally do because I've been too nice, and what's the point in letting them walk all over me? Screw that. I don't want any one walking over me, and I don't want to walk over other people either. I know I've changed dramatically over the past few months, and I know that I haven't been as close to people as I should have and might have been. I may regret some things that's happened, but at the same time I am thankful that it has happened. I have learnt a lot about myself, about how I far I'm able to withstand pain, and how far I've allowed people to drag me about. I know that sometimes I've got friends who think I'm not there for them.. I try to be. and I figured that they would know that.
I've been neglecting my phone a lot. Haha. I haven't been using it as much, and yeah I think I can live without a phone. I keep it in my room now and I don't bother with it when I'm at home. I remember I used to take it everywhere I go with me, and now I realize that it isn't as important anymore.. because I don't have much to do with it anyway besides play the games or delete whatever messages I've received throughout the day. I still get miss calls from unknown numbers which scares me because I don't know who these people are or what their intentions are for calling me up =( It's just scary.
Haha. I remember the other day when I was on the plane, one of the air stewards asked for my number. lol. All I did was smile, and that was all they got from me XP It's so early in the morning right now. I wonder if anyone's awake yet.
I was hoping Rz would come online just now..haha guess he's not. Oh well. It's almost 6am now. I think I better be going back to bed.
love,
yarz.
xx
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