At least I know that its pain.

Every aspect in life, every moment that has gone by has not only one meaning, but more. Take your pick, two or three or infinate. When things happen in your life, and another person is present to see it happen. How many meanings does that have? It's got a minimum of two, depending on how much impact it has on each person.

To whom it may concern:
Wtf. ARGH. Screw you lah. Ouch man, ouch. OUCH. Sakit you know? Yeah you don't have anyone 'special' right now, you know why? Because you just broke up with her that's why! Yeah, go on. Keep saying to those girls, "I sayang you", "I miss you", "you're so cute!" whatever. GO ON. YICH. Keep telling me you still love me when you don't mean it. It's just another act to take care of my heart isn't it? So that I don't cry right? ^.^ Well, fuck you.

As hard as I'm trying not to think about it right now, it's not going to work because it hurts so much. I hate it when people lie, that's why I try to avoid lying. I'm not alright with people pretending around me, even though I, myself, pretend just as much. I pretend, sure but not in a way to take care of how others feel. I pretend because I want an illusion of myself as 'happy'. What I find offending is when people pretend to 'jaga hati'. A person has feelings. That's just rude you know? It's stupid. I'm getting pissed off by the minute.

At least I know I'm in pain. Screw it. It's not worth me crying over him anymore because he doesn't want me. I'm not good enough for him. Oh wait, "he's not good enough for me". Break ups are painful, and I'm sure I've said this before. They hurt like shit when it happens. I'm alright if the reasons are reasonable. So what if right now I'm thinking that he just wanted to bail out because he couldn't cope? Don't use names if you just wanna chicken out. "Fed up" that's the word for it. Think about it will you? Think about it before you decide to break another person's heart. Think about ti when you start hitting on another girl. Think about how it feels to be lied to, to be lead on they way you did me. I'm not that stupid. I've got feelings, please remember that. Think about how much you're hurting me right now when I don't even have a clear idea why you and I broke up. No, you're explainations are too vague. I know there's another reason behind it. Stop lying to me.

I need to vent.