I'm going to regret this.. but you're going to regret so much more.

I could never understand why people seem to make me cry all the time. This past week has been hell for me, maybe even throughout the whole month. I get upset, then I'll cry my eyes out. I'm frustrated more than ever, my tears feel hot and I turn into a blubbering idiot. I cry myself to sleep, because it hurts too much.

It's been one of the worse weeks of my life. I don't know why he had to break my heart. I don't know anything anymore, everytime there's a question.. I'd just get pushed away and they'd be left unanswered.

My birthday's in three days, and I don't think I want to live for so long. I know what I'm suppose to do, oh but why does it have to hurt me so much? Life isn't worth living alone, and I don't know what I'm going to do now.

My eyes hurt from crying. I broke down last night, I couldn't handle it anymore. I just wanted to be happy, I was being selfish just once. I know what I wanted, and I had it. Now, it just slips away..

It's just not f****** right.