Smile and say 'alhamdulillah'. Thank you.

What's the point really? I try to look happy, and in most the eyes of others.. I most probably am. I appear optimisic, and where does that attitude put me? No where. I'm trying to look happy for him, so that he wouldn't have to worry about me, because I know he does. Shit, he can't even bring himself to look at me without feeling a rush of guilt. I don't blame you.. I really don't.

I've been trying to get used to the fact that he won't be sitting next to me in classes anymore.. or lunch, or even stay back after school to hang out. It's feeling weird. Trying to keep myself busy is just another excuse not to think about it. It's a lame pathetic lie to keep me away from feeling mixed up emotions which may lead to hate and vengence.. and maybe even hope. Sigh.

I can't change the past, and I can't change how things are the way now. I found the nicest quote to live by: "Never be affected on how others think, because eventually in the end, all that matters is what you want." Or something like that, I'll re-type it when I check it again. It's in my phone archives.

Exactly 30 days until my AS exams. Not bad eh? I had a Pure Maths 2 mock today, I think I did pretty alright although I messed up the first question. Of all the silly mistakes I could have made, I made that one. Yich. But its alright, all that studying I did over the weekend with three past papers paid off. I just wish I could do something like that for my physics.. sigh =( I'm seriously desperate for my physics paper. I just can't bring myself to leave my grade to that lousy D grade, a low 48 out of 90 marks, I got back in January. I think I'll be resitting that paper again in January next year and see if I can bring it up. I can't wait for my accounting papers though =) but oh well, alhamdullilah.. thank you God for everything.

Y'know, the school or uni I'd like to attend requires a minimum of ABB. Ohoho.. So high =\ yich, not that I'm not confident. I am, with my maths and accounting.. now I've just got to decide wheather I'd like to keep on studying Business Studies and Physics or just one of the two.

I want the dress I saw at the Mall. I want. I want. I have a date to my Sixth Form Ball this year =) yay. Silly baby butt. lol =) It's Earth Day walk tomorrow by the way.. does anyone wanna sponsor me a buck? Sikit sikit, lama lama jadi bukit~. Text me or leave me a message..

Here's a something from me for being so unappreciative:
"There are millions of others, but I seem to be just wanting you."

Bleh. I don't feel like blabbing on today. =(