Morales. heh.

What I think will stay the way it is, for now. It's not what you think, but what you actually know. I know that deep down inside, everything has a reason. All good things must come to an end (from that so-called pessimestic view), and well, if you can't accept the end coming at your face..then you're just going to have to live with it.

You know when you read a book, let's say, a love story.. you get to read what goes on on both sides of the guy and the girl. In real life, you can only get to see one side, yours. How you'd analyse it and put it down into words, well, that's only your side. Your perception.

The things you wish to believe in, are your choice. No one's forcing you to do things you don't want to do..and the choices you make are the ones you think are correct and well, its just the moral and most ethical thing for you to do. Even if it means breaking someone else's heart so that they won't feel anymore or take in deeper pain when its too late.

Growing up in the untold world, where the society is mostly closed. Especially in this region of the world, where I'd think people try to look at life through one perspective. Where everything is controlled, and there is actually no such thing as 'indepencence' because everything has rules.. and breaking them is, against the law. I think we, the 'teenagers' or the new generation of the millenium, who live here, live a totally different life compared to those who live in 'independent' countries, where critisms are taken in with a smile. And there's pressure to improve, where as here.. we just have to accept things the way they are, because rules are rules and you can't change them.

Let's just say, living here is an 'experience'. Only about a year and two months until I get to go to UK and continue my studies there. I can't wait. We're suppose to write up personal statements, but I haven't even begun.. and to think that we're suppose to start applying with our predicted grades in August. AS Exams are in exactly a month and a week. Starting with a General Studies and ending with a Physics Module 1 exam. Unbelievable. Time seems to fly so fast, who would have thunk that exams would come around so soon? It seems like just months ago I was sitting some exams..heh, it was exactly four months ago. I've got exams every six months now, not something that my system can take in.. haha it's still a shock to me. Two years, and a six month gap is not something someone can take in very easily considering that for the past 12 years you only sit exams at the end of every three or two years.

Time just seems to fly and drag around at the same time.