Everything's so messed up.

Being closed minded isn't something many people can tolerate. Being opened minded is being able to tolerable. At most times, people have their own set views of how they see things and of course, their own opinions. But I think people ought to learn to be able to take in what others think. There should be a time when a person is able to voice out their own opinion (without being interrupted with an argument) fully, and then any comments should be spoken at the end. Personally, I find it annoying when I'm saying something and someone interrupts by trying to throw your words back into your face.

My head is hurting like crazy. I should learn to calm down and think rationalier about how things are going between me and my friends. I don't know why everyone right now seem so distant from me and it hurts. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm the one who's moving away from everyone else. I don't know, I'm still thinking about it.

Love can come across a person in different ways. I am aware that I have loved many people in many ways. May it be the dumbest reason to the most obvious; love plays an important role in life. Being loved the way I have, has molded me into the person that I am. Even though at times I might be so pessimistic, that my friends become fed up with me, I somehow still manage to put my head up above the water. As I've said before, I'm a horrible liar, and smiling through fake intuitions isn't something that I like to do. Nevertheless if that's what it takes to make sure that it doesn't cause a further problem, that’s what I'll keep on doing.

I don't know why I'm so depressed today. Heh, scratch that. I'm lying. I know why I'm depressed today though I'd rather not talk about it right now. I hate the notions going on in my head and how much faith I'm losing in myself isn't something I'd want to be proud of. I believe in myself very much, I think I'm old enough to tell the difference between what's right and wrong. So why is it that I'm still blind to see what's really going on in front of me? I still cannot pin point where I'm going wrong in my life. Sigh, I wish you’d tell me..I'd like to know what's pulling me down and how to cut it loose.

I break down every now so often, I don't like talking about it to other people because I don't think they'd want to listen to my daily troubles and unforgettable burdens. I think with every thing I hold back inside me, I keep pulling myself down. I don't know anyone I completely trust, but I do know a few that I trust up to a point. There are so many things troubling me, and I can't bring myself to talk about it to even my closest friends. I guess I'm still scared of what they might think and because our circle is so tight.. It might shatter. I feel better that I've begun to talk to an old friend again, I feel like I can tell things that I wouldn't feel comfortable telling others. It takes a lot off my shoulders and its seriously good therapy. It's made me feel better.

I'm stressed out and no one seems to be able to come up with a remedy. I think I'm losing out on what I enjoy most. Maybe I'm just pulling out. What if it's my destiny to end up alone? Sigh. My eyes are full of tears and I can hardly see the screen right now. Someone tell me I'm crazy and that I've got it all wrong.

Things seem to get more depressing everyday.